Dont say goodbye

6-time to confess

So the next week,i came to school like normal....whem i saw putri,sofea and hannab at the hall,they hugged me...it was akward cause i didn't know what happened.

(Me)
Ummm why are u guys hugging me?

(Putri)
Hannah told us.Im sorry.....

Putri and sofea started to cry but i told them to stay calm and domg cry...they wiped their tears and i hugged them back....since there was air condition in the hall,their sleeve got dry from the tears.

(Me)
Guys please dont tell anyone...only  u guys know and the principal...i told the principal to not tell anyone..

(Putri,sofea,hannah)
Ok we wont tell anyone.

So we went to class and we started out maths lesson....i thought to myself.I wanted to tell arif about me...and the cancer and i only hav a few days left.So i told him i wanted to meet him after recess at class....

After eating the fried chicken...i went up to class an saw him sitting there doing his homework.I had butterflies in my tummy and i was sweating....for some reason,i couldn't breath....I told sofea and the other girls to stay outside....so i told myself

(Me)
DUDE U GOTTA STOP....U hav to tell him now!JUST TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND LET GO....DEEP BREATH AND LET GO....

Then i breathed like normal...for some reason that way worked...

So i sat down infront of him and made eye contact with him...it was kinda peaceful seeing his fair face.

(Me)
Hi arif.

(Arif)
Hi...so wat is the thing you wanted to talk about?

(Me)
Oh...dont get surprised or shocked but...I HAVE LUNG CANCER!

(Arif)
WHAT?!HOW?!WHEN?!

(me)
I had it last year and i only have a few days left....to....live.

He started to give me that shocking face and i was trying to hold my laugh because of that face

(Arif)
But...i wanma spend time with you and ishak and sofea...

(Me)
Im sorry i just cant...thats why i didn't want to run on sports practice.

(Arif)
oh....ummm

The other moments was akward cause i didn't know what to say to him...

(Me)
Look,arif i dont wanna force you to be friends with me

(Arif)
What?i wanna be friends with you because your nice and smart....

I was shocked to hear but not as shocked because i knew.It was kinda obvious.

So a few minutes later we went down and the girls started to give me those smirks to me.....so we walked to the hall.