Half a Heart

The night before school

Nialls P.O.V

Yes! I can't believe she said yes! "So, i guess I'll see you in class tomorrow?" she asked me. "Always" I replied, with a grin on my face. I walked Her to the door, And Said bye. I wanted to kiss her, But it was our first night as a couple, so i decided to not. "bye" she said, and left my house.

As soon as the door closed, Zayn and Louis ran down the stairs to hug me. And while I and Steff talked, They found my diary! I know its a bit girly but its personal. and they had reed a page that was about steff! 

It was an ordinary Wednesday and she came over to my place and we was going to studdie to a big test. it went well at first. like it always did.. We came closer to each other and Id saw she liked it. She thought I was in love with Her, so she asked me.

it went silent at first, and then I said "No, I'm not. Steff, We're best friend.. you didn't though that.. you know" and then it went silent again. She got tears in her eyes, but she succeed to not let them fall. But I saw. I hugged Steffanie tight and looked at her while she tried to push me away. I asked Her why she didn't tell me earlier, But at first, she didn't have an answer. Then she said: "I knew you wouldn't like me back, so i didn't. but the way you looked at me at English class today was a sign for me that you liked me.." "Of course I like you! You my best friend! But just not like that." I responded While I felt like something between the happiest I have ever been, and the most sad I will ever be. "Okey But.. this will stay between you and me, Niall, Right?" She asked me, and I quickly answered Yes, of cours.

I reed it over and over again, Yet don't understand anything. I remember, but i have pushed that night away.

The boys and I where all a bit tired, so we all went to sleep. I dreamed about Steffanie. I dreamed that she was angry at me because a reason that i didn't knew. she yelled at me, she was crying and i still didn't knew why. Than she told me that i had cheated on her. I couldn't believe it. Even in my dreams, i screw things up.