Human Autopilot

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With all the confusion in my life I had no idea what I wanted anymore. Did I want the tour, the fame, the love of my fans and followers or Grayson. I knew if I chose Grayson it was gonna be hard to equally give both my undivided attention. The both meant a lot to me. I couldn't imagine living without either. I keep trying to ignore the situation in all but the fact was that the more I try to ignore it the worst it gets when I do think about it. I noticed when I was ignoring it I no longer had much of a smile. It wasn't making me happy ignoring it. I had to come up with a conclusion soon. Its started affecting my work. You could see it in my pictures my smile my happiness became tolerance. I didn't necessarily agree with my current way of dealing with it all.

 I didn't necessarily agree with my current way of dealing with it all

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I looked lost even in my photos

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I looked lost even in my photos. Trin and the rest of my friends started asking the same questions. Are you happy? Is everything okay? You smile isn't there anymore...is everything fine? Is it Grayson? I wanted to scream. I was inside of my head. I kept my feeling locked up in a cage inside of my mind. They were banging on the bars pleading to be set free.

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