Try Not to Bleed Out... (Reader x Mycroft Holmes)

Mirrors aren't perfect

***[M] is Molly because here initials are the same as Mycroft's
Word count : 891

Hoping out , you stare at yourself in the mirror,' I hate everything . Look at all these scars..no one will ever love me. Why do I even try to date ? And none the less Mr perfect too.' You sigh and run your hands which were previously at your side as you picked yourself apart. You didn't even realised how long you'd been there till a soft putter patter brought you back to reality. Your cheeks are now wet and your eyes stinging, 'you deserve this pain and loneliness. I'm so weak and pathetic !' You cry harder as you turn away and harshly rap the towel around your body.' I need to go home, I need to release... So bad and I'm just in Mycroft's way anyway.' You pull his top over your body and use a belt to hold up the pants.' I'll just ask to get it dropped off or something.'

"Hey it's late, I should be getting going back to Sherlock before he comes looking for me," you say looking down.
"It's fine, I'll get everything dropped off tomorrow and you can return the clothes then," he faked a smile while analysing you. You pull out your phone to text Sherlock and distract yourself.

-I'm being dropped off, see you soon xo [(y/f/n).W]
-out of 10 ? [S.H]
-...3, hence leaving now. I'll explain properly later when I get there. [(y/f/n).W]

*time skip*

" So?" Sherlock questions as you enter your apartment.
"I need some time ," you say calmly walking past him.
"To do what? We both know you'll be breaking your streak. What has it been ..three months ? Now you are telling me you're going to throw it all away again? And because of some trivial thing in your head," he raises his voice so neither of you her Mycroft's assistant enter."Fuck you Sherlock, here I was thinking you cared but now I know that you don't. Of all people I thought that maybe, just maybe, you'd be the one to actually understand me !" You refuse to backdown or cry so you leave the room and slam your door behind you. The assistant nods and places a bag before silently nodding and taking his leave.

*time skip*

'Just once, I know Sherlock can't actually tell unless he sees them or they're deep. Clearly. He was ignorant to the recent scars on my stomach. 2 months ha ! I wish.' You look at your scars blankly. ' I should sleep. Maybe just a few wouldn't hurt and it's not like anyone is actually going to be effected by it.' You pull your knife out and lift up your shirt. 1...2...15.. 'Shit' you sob silently as you zone back in to look at your torn up arm.

-I'm sorry, pick me up. Please help . [(y/f/n).W]
-I'm on my way now, what's wrong beautiful ? I hope you're safe l. Can we call? [J.W]
-sorry, but I'd prefer not to. I don't think I can talk at the moment. When you get here I'd love to hear your voice and I really need a hug. And help. [(y/f/n).W]
-It's okay, I'm here. [J.W]
-I'll be right out [(y/f/n).W]

" hey" you say weakly to eacother as you envelope into a quick but tight hug before hailing a taxi and getting in.

-We're coming over (K+J) [J.W]
-okay.xoxo. Hope everything's okay? [M]
-Here. She's shaking a little less and stopped crying. Still can't talk yet thought. I feel sorry for here having such bad panic attacks. [J.W]

*time skip*

Wrapped in blankets and held in your brothers' arm, you stay at Molly's house even after she left for work. Not wanting to deal with Sherlock.

-Mycroft is looking for you [S.H]
-Fuck you [y/f/n).W]
-(Y/N) please, deal with my brother because he's being difficult. [S.H]
-Fuck off Sherlock. [(y/f/n).W]
-(y/n) [S.H]
-(y/n) what? Deal with my brother because I'm useless and arrogant. No. Sherlock if nothing matters don't maintain contact with me. Let me do what I want and choose what to do with my life. I'm not a child Sherlock you can't just control me. If you really want me home, you know how this works . Goodbye .[(y/f/n).W]
-fine. But know you are treated as a child because you act like one. [S.H]

*time skip *

-what happened ? [M.H]
-Doesn't matter, everything fine Mycroft [(y/f/n).W]
-Sherlock read a text for more than a minute, so let me rephrase my question. Tell me what's going on right now. Just please tell me so I can help, did he find out what's going on with your cutting it is he being a child again ? [M.H]

This angers you because he acted indifferent around you despite knowing your pain.

-Also on my way. It must be bad if he's willing to get in the car with me to get a lift...[M.H]
-He's just being dramatic. It doesn't matter. I was just being insecure. He wasn't there to support me and told me to grow up because my thinking wasn't rational. I just thought he would understand ! [(y/f/n).W]

-We're here [S.H]