sad prayers for guilty bodies

is there somewhere

noir bathroom walls,
and the dreamy eyes,
the only ones i am willing to see myself in.

i do not live in the now,
i live in the daydream future of how our lives are in my head,
the images are as real to me,
much more than a stroke of a pen.

your beautiful brun thighs tangled with mine,
two rose haired girls with a love
as untamed, wild and unpredictable as the curls on their head.

i lay my body on the side of the bed i imagine the outline of yours would lie,
to keep them warm just incase you dropped by at 2am to send me a sweet hello.

my nights were your days but i hope that on the other side of the world your heart beats to the same beat as mine.

please don't tell me i'm the only one that wishes I could wake up to you whispering sweet nothing in my ears?

in this hotel, tonight,
to Is There Somewhere by Halsey,
all I thought of
was
you.

23:56