*Louis*
I guess ignoring Harry after last night isnt really working. I thought that if I just pretended it never happened, maybe he would get the hint and let it go. Though, everytime I look into his eyes, I see us? I feel like he likes me, or maybe that's just my brain trying to make me feel better. It's been pretty quiet between us. I locked myself up in my room as soon as I walked back into the flat. I didn't want to face Harry and apologize. At least, not yet. I hear the door open and I know its one of the lads.
"Harry!" Says Niall. I'm jealous that Niall can just have a normal relationship with Harry while I'm stuck here with these confusing fucking feelings.
I don't care enough to try and listen to their conversation. I get up and decide to get ready for God knows what. A shower sounds nice right now. I strip and turn on the shower. I stand under the warm water just loving the feeling of the water as it runs off my back and down my face. I clean myself and get dry and dressed. I don't feel like choosing anything spectacular to wear so I settle for a plain black v-neck and some simple sweats. I don't put on my shoes yet because I still have to figure out what I'm doing.
I open my door and I hear the T.V on in the living room and I see Harry laying down on the couch but no sign of Niall. I sit down on the floor next to Haz and I think now is a perfect time to talk. "Harry?" I all but whisper. He looks up at me and smiles.
"Ey, thought you were mad at me Boo." "No, I can't be mad at you. You didn't do anything wrong." I cant tell him about what happened between me and Eleanor yet. I broke up with her last night because I was getting really confused about my feelings for Harry. I know he's straight but after last night, I don't really know what to think.
"Why were you crying last night?" He asks. Oh great. What do I say?
"Oh, well I just miss my mum and sisters." That wasn't a complete lie. I really do miss them.
"Can... we talk about.... you know?" I can tell that this has been bugging him just as much as it has been bugging me. I don't fucking know what to say!
Should I just admit to him that I think I like him or let him think it was a mistake? "Uh, well.... you see Harry, last night was... a mistake." I felt my heart break as I lied to him. I could see the hurt on his face.
"A mistake?" He whispered. I didn't want to look him in the eye because I don't trust myself to do what's necessary.
"Well, me and Eleanor got in a fight and I just needed to be with someone. Also, I had a couple of drinks after meeting up with El, so I wasn't in the best state of mind. sorry if I made you uncomfortable."
He shot up and ran into his room, slamming the door. I fight back my tears and head over to my room. I walk by Harry's door and a part of me wants to take back what I said and comfort him. Of course, the sensible side of me knows this is what's best. At least I hope it is. After trying to just take a nap I decide that maybe I just need to go out. I'm not going to a pub or anything, but I could use a coffee.
A/N How was that?! I just got WiFi so if this gets some reads, or comments ill update ASAP! I cut it short because I have a lot more planned! Let me know if its going at a good pace. If you guys want any other bromances, maybe some Niam, or Ziall? Hmm... Idk. I might make one straight.
