Hockey Wife

Chapter 9

"When I went to bed at 8 on Friday night, I didn't expect to be woken up at 4:30 in the morning on a Saturday." I quietly scream at Mike.

"Sorry honey I've lost a lot of muscle since I've been gone."

"No you haven't!" I look at with a "are you kidding face".

"Well I cant talk now I have to hit the gym."

He rushes out the room without even a goodbye.

"Ugghh."

I fall onto my bed,grab a pillow , and scream into it.I flip over and look at my ceiling. At least try to because its still dark out at 4: 30 A.M. I let out a long sigh and slowly get up. Then what Doctor Richards said last night comes into my mind.Could I be pregnant? No, that can't happen, but yet again maybe I can. I grab my head in frustration.

All Mike and I ever wanted was a child. We didn't want fame or fortune, all we wanted was a child. We usually discuss this kind of stuff on the off season because its such a stressful topic. Stress that Mike doesn't need. I think about telling him about what Doctor Richards said, but then I think this will just add stress that he dosen't need he's already worried about getting back in shape.

I nod at this decision and walk t my kitchen to make some coffee. As the water boils I think about the numerous times we have gone to doctors in order to find out why we weren't getting pregnant. They all had different excuses that made no sense. Then there was that one day that our dream finally came true. We were so excited and happy we felt our lives had finally begun. Then, about three weeks later that joy left our lives. I remember the headlines after what happened. Distress for Blackhawk's Captain , and Captain on Leave to Stay with Wife. I hated those headlines. Hot tears began to form in my eyes, and soon I was quietly sobbing.

The water was soon boiling and I poured myself some water. I stirred and slowly brought the cups to my lips. I couldn't hold back my tears. They just kept coming. I placed my cup on the counter and tried to breath deep breathes. This is what Mike taught me. Whenever I got super nervous for a competition he always told me to do this. I calm down and pick up my cup. I walk over to the coach, sit down,and turn on the T.V. I flip through the channels trying to find something good. There is nothing on, of course, until I find Lord of the Rings. Mike and I are also big Lord of the Rings fans. We don't go to conventions we just like the books and movies. As I sit there, in the dark, drinking my coffee I wonder about what Mike is doing. Then the door slowly opens and in comes Mike dripping with sweat. He pants and says,

"Hiya dear."

"Hello Mike, what what were you ahh doing down there." I say in a slight teasing voice.

"Oh you know the usual stuff."

"Actual sweety I don't know the usual stuff."

"Well, I am not going to tell you because right now I can barley talk."

"Okay then take a shower before you lie on the bed."

"I will."

He says as he walks towards the bathroom.

I shake my head and return to watching the movie.

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The end credits are rolling and the sun is finally coming up. I go in the bedroom to check on Mike and there he is lying on the bed past out. I roll my eyes and crawl into bed. He must still be awake for he smiles an puts his arm around me. Then I think about telling him. Should I? No, he'll just worry and get stressed which won't be good. I decide to just close my eyes and sleep.