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16. Yoongi

''He deserves to be alone''. Your best friend told you once again after you talked with her about your boyfriend. ''You deserve better than him, you're worth so much worth. Literally I don't know why you're still together with him''. She told you. No, yours and Yoongi's relationship wasn't the best but you loved him and deep down you knew he loves you too. ''Stop it. I don't want to hear any of it anymore'' you told your best friend. ''I love him and he loves me, he just has a hard time showing it''. ''Y/N, do you even believe that yourself? He yells at you or ignores you for days out of nowhere and yet you're here trying to convince yourself and others nothing's going on and that he loves you. If he truly loves you he doesn't treat you like this, and you know that as well as I do''. Bang. As a shot right through your heart when your best friend points out the hard truth. You don't want to believe it and you want to tell yourself he isn't like that, but he was like that, and you knew it. ''I need some time'' you said to your best friend and left the place the two of you were. You went home to see Yoongi sitting on the couch watching tv, a can of beer in his hand. ''Yoongi.. do you love me?'' you didn't greet him or anything, you needed to know it so you can make decisions. ''What? Not even a simple hello or something? What the fuck is wrong with you all of the sudden?'' he was raising his voice and you knew he was going to yell at you but you needed to know it. ''D-do you love me? Answer me Yoongi!'' you said back. ''What kind of question is that huh?'' He yelled by now ''Why else would I be with you? Do you think I'm crazy or something?'' He stood up from the couch and walked towards you. ''Why do you never show me love? You always yell at me, or ignore me.. We never go on dates or anything other couples do''. You were shaking. You know talking about his behavior always gets him furious, but you kept going. ''You never show me any affection Yoongi''. He became mad, really mad. But he also was shocked.. was this how his girlfriend thought of him? As a yelling mad person who doesn't love or affectionate someone? He looked at you and stared deeply in your eyes. ''I-is this how you feel? Is it how you really feel about me Y/N?'' he asked as he tried to find an answer in your eyes. You lowered your head. ''Yes Yoongi, it is''. That did it for him, he never realized what he did, he never thought of your feelings like that. He lowered his body until he was on his knees. He realized what he did to you and he felt regret, hoe scared you must've been for him all this time. What if you felt forced to stay with him, scared what he might do when you wanted to leave? Yoongi was sitting on his knees at the ground as he thought about all those things. You were shocked seeing him like this instead of him yelling you or storming out of the house, but little did you know it hit him, real hard. He looked up to see you staring at him already, tears in both of your eyes. ''I-I'm sorry Y/N.. I truly am, I didn't realize what I was doing to you, I'm really really sorry''. He kept apologizing and tears kept coming out both of your eyes, rolling their way down your cheeks and softly dripping on the carpet when the path stopped at your chin. ''I know you are, but I can't keep up like this, I'm sorry too, Yoongi'' you said softly as you walked past him to get your stuff to pack it. ''N-no Y/N, w-what are you doing?! Stay here please.. I need you!'' Yoongi pleaded as he stayed at the ground, having no strength to stand up. ''I'm sorry, Yoongi'' you sniffed as you walked out of the house, closing the door softly behind you. It was over, you left him, there was no more you and him. It's only you now and only him now. Yoongi was devastated, he let himself fall completely to the ground as he realized he lost you because of his behavior. ''I'm sorry Y/N.. please come back'' he kept crying and hitting his chest to make the pain in his heart less, but it didn't help.. he lost you this time, and he knew you weren't coming back.