BTS Imagines || Kpopde

18. Jimin

AUTHORS NOTE

TRIGGER WARNING
* Abuse
* Depression
* Smoking
* Death

I sigh, another day filled with feelings I shouldn't have. Another day filled with thoughts I shouldn't have. Another day with love that doesn't count and another day filled with shouting, harsh words, punches and anger. You can't help it either, I know you can't and I don't blame you. It's my fault, I shouldn't make you mad but yet I do. I'm sorry, I say as I whimper after yet another hit. I'm sure my ribs will be broken by now. It seems scary.. but I'm used to it. The harming doesn't just stop there. ''You're disgusting''.. I know. ''You're worth less than the trash underneath my shoes''.. I know. ''I hate you''.. I sigh internally, I know. ''Don't ever try to get away from me, you have no one to go to''.. You're right, you made sure I wouldn't have anyone to go to when you're done with me. He thinks I'm pathetic, but I'm sure he still loves me.. he does right? I know he does, why else would he come back to me? Two hours and a lot of beating further ''I'm sorry baby.. you know why I did this right?'' yes, yes I know all too well but I won't say anything, instead I just nod. He smiles softly at me ''There's ice in the freezer, put some on those ribs of yours before we go on with the little games''. Games.. he always calls them games, but are they games if not everyone enjoys them? I stare into the freezer, trying to spot the ice to put on my sore limbs and bruises. I can feel my face being pushed away from the freezer, I did it again. ''You shouldn't keep the door of the freezer open for so long, it'll melt''. I'm sorry I say as I close the door of the freezer. ''Are you ready for some fun?'' he asks me, I nod my head as if I have any other choice, if only. His hands are on my back going lower and lower as he kisses my bruises. I wince and he looks up. ''What's this? You're not enjoying it?'' Shit. I look at him, my eyes pleading him to stop whatever he's doing and treat me like an actual human but the only response I get is a smirk followed by a hiss. I did wrong, again. After the games that seem oh so fun to him ended he lays there on his bed. I'm trying not to move as I'm in pain, but he makes me do otherwise. ''Get me something to eat and drink, also get me my cigarettes''. Standing up is harder than I thought, it's hard how I can feel this much pain, but not from my body. It's my feelings that are hurt. I knew I shouldn't fall for someone like him and look where we are now. I sigh, I have to get away from him before he kills me, but if I try and he gets me I'll be dead too. It's not a matter of life I realize as I keep thinking. I just have to escape. Now. I begin to run towards the front door as I notice he still doesn't know what's going on. Once I open the front door making it click I can hear his voice. ''What are you trying to do? Running away? To where hm? You have nowhere to go, but I like your effort''. I don't bother turning around, I know this is the end. I feel a pain in my lower back, quickly going through my whole body. He stabbed me. I feel more pain, he keeps stabbing me over and over, this is it. When I get to heaven, I will watch over you with the love I still have for you of which I'm sure it'll stay. Goodbye, my love.