It's You

4

"So, Helen, this will be your room. There's not much in here but I hope you will be able to feel yourself at home. I bought you some clothes. The bathroom is across your room and Ryan and my room will be downstairs. Feel free to roam the house, okay?" Janet said. I walk into the room and look around. To say there's not much in here is an understatement. This room is a very well designed room. Is this room designed for a guest room? How great the main room is? I will be staying here? But for a while right? This room is a thousand times better than my room back at home. Can I just ask my mom to move here with me? Will Janet and Ryan allow us? I will ask her one day. Not today. 

"Helen, you can rest a bit now. I will call you down at 7 and we'll eat dinner together. Okay?"

"Okay." With that Janet smile and leave me alone in the room. I walk around the room. I walk to the closet and open it. My jaw drop when I saw all of the clothes in there. It's full of girly clothes and it's all fit my size at short glance. Isn't it all a bit too much? Is it all for me? I'm just staying here for a while, right? What will happen to these clothes after I go? Or is there another girl here and this is her room? Am I sharing this room? I decided to close the closet and head downstairs. I walk down the stairs and see a door on the left which I assume Ryan and Janet's bedroom. Then I walk down another two steps and on my left is the front door. Straight ahead me is the living room. With a few sofas and a coffee table in the middle. If I turn to the right, I see a breakfast bar and kitchen behind them. A very neat house and I fell in love instantly from when I stepped inside the porch. This house is different from mine. Mine is very cold. Flowers that used to grow at the garden are dry and wilted. The once colorful house become white, grey, tense and cold. But Janet's house radiates comfort and warmness.

I sit down on a sofa that face the road outside. Janet is not here. I think she's inside her room with Ryan. He's also warm but I can't drop my guard around him. What if he suddenly turn out to be like my dad? My dad is also warm before and I love him. Now, I don't love him anymore. He's cruel and cold. There's maybe a chance Ryan will become like him.

"Hanna? What are you doing?"

"Sitting"

"I can see that," Janet laugh a bit. "I mean, why aren't you resting in your room?" She walk and sit besides me.

"I'm waiting for my mommy to pick me up. She'll be here soon, right?" Life seems drain from her face. She's pale and suddenly she's tearing up. She embraces me and she cries. I want to ask what happened but I can't bring myself to ask. All I do is sit still and let her cry. After sometimes, she wipes her tears away and let me go. "Oh, Helen. I'm so sorry for cried like that. I think I will go back to my room. You can wait here but please rest in your room when you're tired. Okay?"
I just nod my head. She gets up and smiles to me then she walks back to her bedroom. I watch her until she close the door before finally turn my head back towards the window.
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Three months passed and I'm still waiting for mom to come. I will come back and sit on the same spot. The same sofa that face the road. Everyday. The season has changed. Snow is covering the road now. I just leave this spot whenever I really need to go to the toilet or Janet call me to eat. She has a habit for eating together on the dining table. She would never let me eat on the sofa so I just follow her rule. I started to lose my hope. Is mom really going to come?

"Helen," Janet called me and sit besides me. I look at her and wait for what she's going to say.

"Umm... How should I say this?" she mumble to herself and look out the window for a while. I tilt my head and raise my eyebrows. Is something wrong?

"Umm... Are you still waiting for your mom?" she asked and I just nod my head once.

"Do you still want to wait for her?" she asked again but this time, I hesitate for a moment. Do I have to wait some more? Do I want to? No. No, I don't. I'm tired. Then, I shake my head slowly. I just feel like I'm waiting for nothing and I think mom doesn't love me anymore that she's leaving me here alone with fortunately kind stranger.

"Really?" Janet asked again but choked a bit so I just nod once again. She takes a deep breath once then release it slowly.

"Now, Helen. I'm going to tell you something important but before I do that, I want you to know that I and Ryan don't force you to do anything. Okay?" I didn't see it coming so I just nod. Her eyes searching mine and she holds my hands.

"Helen, Ryan and I have to move from here. We have to move to Sheffield. Ryan gets a promotion but we have to move there. We decided to move there and I want to ask you, whether you want to come with us or not. Like I said before. We won't force you to come with us. We leave the choice up to you. You can choose to come or stay here. We will agree with your decision and we can arrange it if you want to stay. What do you think, Helen? Will you come with us?"

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OHHHH!! It's going further!! So what do you guys think Helen will chose?

Author's Note
Sorry for not updating so long!! Lots of thing is going on and I'll try my best to finish this story. Enjoy and stay tuned!!

-WJ-