Helen Stone is the perfect woman you could ever imagine. She would be too perfect if she did not grow up as a cold young woman. She does not trust anyone. With her dark past lingering her life, will she be able to trust anyone ever again? Or even mo...
Moving to Sheffield? WOW. Just wow! I didn't see it coming at all. It's a tempting offer. But, my mom might come and pick me up. I should wait for her. She'll come. Right? No. It's been 3 months since she left. She'll never come, I feel a small part of me said. That's true. I'm tired. 3 months of waiting is enough. My mom maybe simply don't want me anymore. Maybe I'm just worthless. I feel so betrayed. I don't have anyone. I can't just trust anyone. What if they also betray me? Can I trust Janet, even more Ryan? What should I do? They've been so good to me. Even if I never spoke to them, they understand me. They know I want to be alone. Maybe, just maybe, I can trust them a bit. Who else can I trust? After thinking for a while, I nod. I'll come with Ryan and Janet. I want to go out of this town. I need to go. My mom is in this same town yet she never come. I don't think I can't stand the idea being in this town any longer. My vision is blurred by tears. A single drop of tear roll down my cheek. My chest feel heavy and it hurts. God, it hurts so much. Not physically but it's there. I can feel it. Is it called broken heart? I don't know. But I want it to stop. A single drop of tear is followed by others. The next thing I know I'm already crying. Janet is hugging me. I cry and cry until I feel I can't cry anymore. I'm tired and I close my eyes. Last thing past through my mind is I won't regret this and then I fall asleep.
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One month later
A month later, I found myself staring outside the window. Janet, Ryan, and I are on our way to the new house. I guess we'll be living in the outskirt of London. We're passing trees and I don't see many cars other than ours. Truthfully, I'm glad with it. Living in the city will be too crowded and I prefer some sort of peace.
Few moments later, the car comes to stop. "We're here, Helen. Let's go. We'll show you the house," Janet turn her body from the front seat and look at me. Her eyes are sparkling as in anticipation. She has been very chirpy and hasn't stop talked about moving to London since I agreed to move with her and Ryan. She always talked about how I will love London even just the outskirt of town. She even enrolled me to one of school nearby our house. She said it's very near. Just about 20 minutes by car. Thought of school gives me shiver. I never come to a good term with school. Not with the subject though. But with people. Like who doesn't, right? I was always a loner even from my last school. No one want to be my friend because I'm small, pathetic, dirty, and weak. I can't do many sports but I think I do pretty well with other subject. More than good actually. I've been a punching-sack for those 'sporty' kid. One day, I'll come home hungry because they took my lunch or even the other day I will come home with bruises. My mom was too busy working to even notice, my dad never gets sober so even I get another beating from him. My teachers were just to careless to pay attention. I shiver once again and get off the car.
In front of me, I saw a very modern looking house. A two-story house with lots of windows with rocky walls, small garden, and looks so luxurious yet so simple. My jaw drops and I stare at it with adoration. I never saw a house like this before. Sure our house before also beautiful but this one is two times better. I look at Janet and she looks at me happily. Well, I guess I'm going to live here happily. But, I can't always lean on Janet and Ryan. I want to move out someday but, I still have a long way to go. For now, I think I just have to live my life and see how the future goes.
"Ready to come in?" Janet asked. I nod my head. She held her hand out and take my hand in hers. She lead me in the house. She open the door and I see the most comfortable living room ever. There's a fire place on one side of the wall and sofas facing it. There's also a plasma TV hanging on the wall. The walls are made of wood paneling. Grand piano on one corner next to big windows. The windows reach the ceiling displaying the wood surrounding the backyard. After that, Janet takes me to the kitchen and other marvelous room. Even everything look amazing and luxurious but this house still gives the warm atmosphere. The next stop my room. Janet opens the door and once again I'm amazed by the design. I step in and look around the room. The walls covered with a white wallpaper. The bed is on the corner across a door that leads to a super comfy bathroom.
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The look of Hanna's bedroom
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The bathroom inside Hanna's bedroom
"Do you like it, Hanna?" I jumped a little. Forget that she was behind me all this time. I turn to see her looking at me with expectation.
"I like it. Thank you. But isn't it too much?"
"It's okay, dear. Ryan and I want you to be comfortable living with us," she said looking at me. Her eyes looking everywhere but me. Why do she and Ryan help me this much? Why are they so nice? Why do they bother to take me here all the way from London? Why are they even bother with my worthless self? And one thing cross my mind and before I stop myself I ask her, "My mom threw me away, doesn't she?"
Her head snap to me and her eyes widen. Janet look at me with teary eyes and hug me hard. "I'm sorry, Hanna. We planned to tell you about this when you're bigger. We're very sorry." A drop of tear fall down my cheeks followed by another. I cried hard. My chest hurt. No. I feel broken. I feel my heart broken. My mother said she loves me. Is she lying? Why did she throw me away then? Does my father told her to? Does she do it by herself? Why? Why? Why? Questions come after another. Janet's crying too. Why is she crying? Why does she care? But I'm too broken to care about it now. All I know now is I don't have a parent anymore and my heart is broken. All of good memories from when I was little laughing with my mom and dad come to my head. I cried harder. I love them. Why can't I live normally like all my friends at school? Their parent always pick them up after school while I have to walk home alone everyday. I want to be like them too and all I remember was I cried in Janet's embrace until I can't keep my eyes open and my tears were all dry.
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Author's Note
Hey everyone! Here's the new part of It's you. I know it's been so long but again a lot of things came up but I'm going to finish this story! I promise you guys! I don't know if someone actually read this story. So, please leave a comment, share, and vote!
