Ferris Wheel

Chapter 20 | This Girl

You know, writing these ff told me something. Bee and Sean and all the cube members are normal people. Even though they're famous, they have normal people problems and normal people life. My view of them changed. I respect them even more now for some reason. Well.... Hope you enjoy the next chapter!

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~Sean's POV~

"A Ferris wheel is like the love cycle...."

I kept on repeating Liam's phrase as it was so brilliant. I was still on my knees, bawling my eyes out. I start to let go of my hair and set it down on my lap. Ant comes down to my level and puts his hand towards me. He was signaling to get up by him helping. I reach for his hands and get up ever so slowly. Once we get up, Brayden goes over to me.

"Hey bro.... What happened?"

I give a sigh. I didn't want to explain such a stupid reason to be crying about. I told him everything about the first day I start to have feelings for Bee. I told Graser, Liam, Ant, Ize, Mitchell, and Brayden about every single detail. From high school. To the crazy dream. To every event. Until now. Of all the things I've said, I don't think I've ever wanted Bee from my life...(his dialogue is going to be loooooooongggg so grab popcorn!)

"In high school, at the beginning of senior grade, Bee and Mitchell came in. They were new. Of course you guys were a fond if each other but I wasn't. Nor was anyone. Then Will came. And finally, Ant. It was just the 5 of us. Sorry Ize, you were in Ireland. And Brayden, your in Canada.... And Liam, you were at your home town. Continuing on, we were in different ages. Will, Bee, and I were seniors, Mitchell was a sophomore, and Ant was a junior. Of course, everyone else were at different schools. So much happened in the time everyone moved in to our school. Right in the beginning of school, Will was dating Bee. I guess they developed a love for each other. I didn't know any of you guys back then. I just hung out with Ant and other guys, but they were shady... Except for you, Ant of course. But one day, I met this girl. I wasn't planning on dating anyone back then. I never really fell in love with someone. There was no one there in my school that I was fond of. But this girl changed my life, literally. At that time, I was dealing with the death of my mother. My father already died years ago. My mother killed herself..... And it really affected me. Really. I changed my image. I remember that I was the fun guy and amazing friend that everyone liked in elementary, Middle, and in early high school. But right when we were starting senior, my life was affected. I would shut everyone down, I would look down, and I would give people glares. I don't want to interact with other people. I just had my brother, who I also shut down. I was never in the mood in senior. You can't blame me, I was suffering.... This girl.... She would try every second to open me. To open my true self... She knew that I was shut down. We would work on projects together, go to events, and work together. Maybe I liked her, maybe not. I'm not sure, I was a total douchebag..... I wouldn't open my feelings, but the girl would try to open it. She would come by my house everyday, walk with me everyday, and talk to me everyday. Maybe she liked me back then, maybe not. All I could say is that... This girl was dating someone else..... This girl was confusing.... You couldn't tell what she was thinking...... This girl was......

Bee.

There was a silence that filled in the air. No one spoke, but just shuttered around. Ant spoke.

"I-I didn't k-know that you w-were going t-through such a hard t-time... You should've told me! I was your friend, and still am."