I Can't Love Him! He's My Brother! Or Can I? Rikoss

5.

This will be kind of an emotional chapter
Ross prov

So I need to find Rydel and or Riker I can't hold it anymore I want to be with Riker but I don't know how to ask him. When I finally found her I asked her.
"Rydel I really need your help." I am really nervous.
"OK one just sing to Riker If I can't be with you. Then tell him your in love with him. And two I'm ready to murder Courtney she threatened Riker. I hate to say it but Riker cut himself because he admitted to Rocky and Ratliff that he loves you." Rydel explained getting quite at end.
I was shocked that Rydel knew that I was going to ask her and hurt that Riker cut himself, and extremely mad that Courtney would do that.
"Rydel why do you think Courtney would do that? I need to break up with her ASAP." I replayed quietly with tears threatening to fall.
Rydel just hugged me and I broke down crying.

So I'm just going to crawl in a hole and die I'm not doing so well and I started cutting cutting again this time it is my arms it's my legs to I don't know.
Sorry I'm not updating a lot I will try to post at least two chapters a week if that's cool with you guys
At least until I get better