Habits of My Heart

-4-

I wake at my own time feeling even worse than I ever do.

The events that happened last night played over and over again in my mind. I tried to put them away and think of something else but it doesn't work.

Maybe I should ditch the party.

I can always go hang out with Tweek at the coffee shop since towards night time there isn't a lot of people coming in ordering stuff so.

No I can't ditch. I'm not going to be a pussy because I'm too nervous to face Kenny. I'll just go and stay near my friends and if Kenny approaches me then we'll see what happens.

So me being set with my decision I rolled back to sleep.

Time skipu

I later woke up again at 4:00 pm so I decided to get up and head to the coffee shop so I can go talk to Tweek a bit since he's not going to be there and well he's my best friend so why the hell not.

When I walked in the shop the top bell rang as the smell of coffee beans filled the room and left a relaxing feeling in me.

"W-welcome to Harbucks" I looked up to the messy haired blonde as he was grabbing a pen off the counter not looking up at me but then he soon took full attention to me and smiled.

"H-hey Craig what can I get y-ya?" He stuttered a bit he didn't twitch as much since he gets really relaxed around me we are best friends and all.

"Let me get a small coffee with cream and sugar and then I'd like to talk to you for a bit." He said 'okay' and then he was off to go make my order.

When he came back we both sat in one of the far back booths. I took a sip of my coffee and thought for a bit on what I wanted to say.

"S-so what d-did you want to talk a-about" he said crossing his arms.

"Uh..." I was hesitant to tell him but I knew he wouldn't judge me.

"I have this weird feeling with Kenny... It's like when he's around I feel odd like I want him to go away and leave me alone, but when he does I feel empty inside like he fills the void in my heart on some shit... And like we hung out last night." I looked up at Tweek and he just looked down at the table taking in everything I said.

"W-what happened when you guys hung o-out?" He asked.

I just fiddled with the cup and blushed lightly.

"He took me to this place we had a small moment and we almost kissed..." I trailed off and put my head down on the table I could tell Tweek's eyes grew wide.

"You almost kissed!?" He was a bit loud but I didn't care since no body was really in here.

I just shook my head yes and he gasped.

"Why didn't you guys actually kiss was someone watching you two!?" I shook my head no and lifted it off the table.

"I pushed him away."

And that's when I felt something hit my face.

Tweek was throwing sugar packets at my face.

"You i-idiot what the hell!? You had a chance to k-kiss him and you didn't take it!" He then stopped and banged his hands on the table making me jump a bit.

"I wasn't sure about my feelings! I wasn't sure if that was the right thing to do."

It was quite again and then Tweek sighed.

"W-well I know you don't love him it's way too early for that... But I can tell you like him but it takes you to really realize that."

I just look down at my cup taking in his words he was right.

"And also don't get s-sucked in too fast."

I look up at him in confusion.

"You know this is Kenny McCormick he can sweet talk anyone into doing stuff with him... I-I don't want you to get sucked in so f-fast he then drops you like he does with the other boys and girls at our s-school."

He was right I don't want to end up like Bebe. Their brake up was harsh.

"Be c-carful Craig going to that party AND remember the things I said don't think a-about love yet just try to f-figure out your overall feelings for the guy."

I gave Tweek a slight smile as he gave me the same and then soon people started rolling in and I stood up said bye to Tweek and he was off back to work and I left the shop.

I had later finished my cup and was headed down the street to my house. Tweek gave me a lot to think about.

I'm going to use it to my advantage.