Habits of My Heart

-18-

"Yo Ken sup dude." I turned around to see Kyle as I smile at him closing my locker.

"Hey, what's up?" I ask. "Okay so like I heard Token's having a kick ass house party since his parents are away on business. And he said the whole 12 grade class are invited so... Wanna go?" My smile grew wider as I grew excited.

"Why is that even a question hell yeah Im going."
"Great! Hey I'll see ya later, gotta get to history before Cartman takes my seat."

I wave goodbye as Kyle takes off then I leave also.

I walk down the near empty halls then slipped into my assigned classroom taking my seat in the back, When I look around a few more kids walk in as the bell rung and first period starts and like always I take a nap cause fuck English.

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Later that night I got ready as Kyle and Stan picked me up from my house then we all drove to Token's house.

It was a huge ass place with a gate and a huge fountain out front. My mouth dropped in 'aw' as I admired the place.

I knew Token was rich but shit his house gets me ever time. We pull in in front of the gates as they pull back letting us in and we parked on the side of the house.

"Dude Im so excited to see what Token has this time." Stan says wrapping his arm around Kyle. I straight up feel like the third wheel around those two so I hurry inside.

Music blasted when I opened up the door to the house kids were scattered around the place drinking and talking amongst themselves and I took notice to something. So me being all adventures and shit, I grabbed a beer and started walking towards the backyard where there was a bond fire going on with only one person sitting by it by himself as other people outside stayed near the door or trees. So I go up to him.

"Hey why ya sitting by yourself you got dumpped or something?" I say with a chuckle as I placed my hand on his shoulder and he turned around staring me dead in the eyes and I drop my bottle which ended up spilling on my shoes. I took in his features and realized who it was and I felt my heart stop as I stepped back.

It was Craig.

I couldnt breathe I had lost every feeling in my body and I couldnt move. So I just stood there terrified as he gives me the same expression.

"Why are you here?" He said low and dark but I couldn't respone so I just kept staring.

"You weren't suppose to be here..." He stood up and backed away from me.

"W-why not?" I finally managed to speak out.

"Because you practically ruined my life and I asked Token not to let you in."

He started to get angry as I looked at him in confusion.

"H-how did I ruin your life?" I knew that was a stupid question because Craig began to grow more angry.

"How did you!? You should fucking know! You sleep with me show me kindness and then throw me away like I was some type of old unwanted toy!" Craig had began to ball up his fists and he took a step closer to me as I took one back.

"I trusted you! I followed you! I fucking liked you enough that I opened up to you and you just toss me away to go get someone else! Was I not good enough! Did I waste your time! Did you even care about me!?" Craig spoke his voice cracked at the last part as I saw his eyes start to water.

"C-Craig I-Im sorry I didnt mean to-" I stop myself and tried to process my words carefully. "I didn't know what I was feeling for you so I left I didn't want to hurt you-" Then Craig cut me off by yelling out bullshit.

"Is that the line you use to all the other boys and girls you mess with. Give them the sobby sad story of you don't know what you were feeling than you straight up lie to me." There was pause. Silence filled our space as the people outside started to stare at us.

"I want you to leave..." he said lowering his voice.

"But Craig..." I reached out to his arm and he quickly snached it away.

"Leave..."

"Craig please."

He started to cry. "Get out of here I dont want to see you ever again!!" He yelled out as I gave up trying to plead with him. So I gave out a sigh and started to walk away while I heard soft cries from the other in the distance.