Chapter 16
Tanya's POV
"Enjoying my vacation with MY LORI"
Napangiti na lang ako ng mapakla ng mabasa ko ang caption niya. They were smiling while hugging each other, and I can't prevent the pain that I'm feeling right now.
Buti pa siya happy, samantalang ako, ito, hindi makalimot. Nasa dilim pa rin ng aking nakaraan. How can I forget the past if everything I see reminds me of him? He is the reason why I'm broken right now.
Isa lang ang salitang bagay sa kanya: PAASA.
He gave me false hope. And that false hope caused my life into hell. My simple life was peaceful before, until he came and turned it into hell. Naramdaman ko na lang na pumatak na ang mga luha ko. Kaya bago pa man ito dumami, I hurriedly wiped it and turned off my phone.
Reminiscing the past just causes so much pain.
"Hindi madali ang nakaraan pero mas mahirap ang hinaharap." That's what my mom said. Sinabi rin niya na huwag akong mawalan ng pag-asa pero ang hirap din pala kapag mag-isa ka na lang. Na pati ang nag-iisang karamay mo ay mawawala din. Yung nagsasabi na "Kaya mo yan, ikaw pa." "Malalagpasan mo rin iyan." at "Nandito naman ako para sa iyo."
But now, no one will ever tell me those words. I feel so empty.
1 month ago, before my mom died, nalaman kong niloloko at pinapaasa niya lang ako. All those things he did and said, were just fake. He didn't ever loved me, but the one he loved? She is my most trusted friend. At ano lang yung malalaman ko? Siya pa yung magtataksil sa akin!
Ang dad ko na lang ang natitira sa akin pero nasaan siya? Ayun pagpaparami lang ng pera ang alam. I hate him. He didn't even come in his wife's burial. And the f*cking reason is he has an important meeting with a big client. F*ck him!!
You will surely regret that you caused me all of these pain. All of the loneliness, sadness, and hatred. I will use it against you. I will change into the better me: a strong one.
Tomorrow...
The old, weak, and crybaby me will be gone.
I closed my eyes and let the darkness shallow me.
BINABASA MO ANG
My Last, First Kiss
ספרות לא בדיוניתShe's the girl who experienced both happiness and pain because of love. But that happiness suddenly disappeared like bubbles and pain took over it. Did she change for the better? Maybe not. DESTINY? FOREVER? Do you really exist?
