Song Stories

Hurt Me - Luke Hemmings

Hurt Me- Lapsley 

  Can't look at you the same way, anticipatin' heartbreak
And I know, and I know, and I know
I'm puttin' on a brave face to meet you in the same place
And I know, and I know, and I know
Gotta let my mind find another space
Cause I heard these scars never go away
And now I'm runnin' out of ways to numb the pain  

Putting on a fake smile, I walk into the coffee shop where Luke and I used to sit for hours drinking coffee and laughing at everything. As soon as I walk in, my eyes find him in the same booth as always, looking out of the window with an expressionless face and a cup of coffee on the table in front of him.

I want to run over to him and kiss him like I normally would if we were still together. Do I really want to put myself through that again? He would only break my heart into a million more pieces, if it were even possible.

I sit in front of him and he jumps a bit coming out of his daydream.

"You scared me" he gives me a small smile. "How are you?"

My small smile fades as I ask myself what the hell I was even doing. When I leave, it's only going to hurt me even more. 

"I'm fine. Do you have it?" I ask, trying not to let him see the pain in my eyes. 

God I can't even look at him anymore.

He looks down at his coffee as he grabs it and takes a drink. 

"Do you want anything? I can buy you your favorite like old times." He smiles looking in my eyes.

"Luke. No I don't. Just give it to me so I can go please. I don't want to do this."

His smile disappears as he realizes that I'm not here for a chat or coffee. That I want the key to our apartment back.

He reaches into his pocket and pulls out the silver key that I thought would be his forever.

"(y/n), please just listen to me"

"No Luke you already told me everything. I don't want to hurt anymore."

I snatch the key out of his hand and stand up, quickly grabbing my purse and nearly sprinting towards the door before a tear can slide down my face. I'm done letting him see me cry.

As soon as I get to ou- my apartment, I instantly fall onto my bed, sobbing. 

I reach into my nightstand and grab my half empty bottle of vodka and drink some of it, the burning feeling  on my throat was almost soothing, but it doesn't help like it used to.

I have tried everything imaginable to forget about him but nothing seems to numb the pain anymore.

  Like breathing underwater, what's the law and order?
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
You're sitting in a corner, hiding 'til it's over
And it shows, and it shows, and it shows
Buildin' up my walls just to tear them down
Tell me that it's love, force me to drown
Buildin' up my walls just to tear them down
Tell me that it's love
(And I thought you said you loved me)  

As soon as I wake up, I immediately cringe in pain from my head hurting. I check my phone and see that I slept until 2 p.m. Fuck not again. 

The now empty bottle is sitting on Lukes side of the bed so I grab it and sit it on my nightstand. 

*new text*

Why won't you talk to me? I told you I was sorry a million times. I'm sorry (y/n). I love you so much. I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you.