Dear , best friend
I really hope you kept your promise and didnt open this letter till after i left.
I know by the time you read this letter ill be gone and we will probably never see each other again. Well thats okay , that always happends when some one leaves and we stop seeing eachother daily....it seem that people begin to drift apart aswell as the bonds weve made with one another. I wrote this letter and rewrote it so many times, trying to get just the right words to say, and yet it seems that the only right words are the ones that aren't really planed out. So ill just go right ahead and tell you the reason for this letter.
I dont want to regret
Thats the main reason why. I want to leave knowing that at least in the end , even if its through this letter that you know exactly how i feel and how youve made me feel up until now.
I use to think, " wont it be bothersome to confess to someone if you know they dont like you" and i still do think that because well since your my best friend , i think it might be awkward for you to know youve confessed to me all the people youve liked and relied on me for support ....and then find out youve been hurting my feelings and indirectly rejecting me this entire time, your wrong. I wanted to keep you happy and care free, i wanted to enjoy the you who is yourself . I wanted to know the you who didnt think or have to avoid certain topics in order not to hurt my feelings. I wanted to know your pains and troubels and be thier for you even if i was just one of many. So thats why i thought i never wanted to tell the person i liked.....i love you......
But now that its over and i have to say goodbye i wonder if i really gave it my all, or if i could have done somthing diffrent maybe even bolder.......all of these are regrets, regrets i noticed i dont want to keep.
Because even if im being selfish or cowardly i noticed that i want you to know, i want you to realise that iv been lying evertime i said i was okay and that i didnt really care or love anyone.
I want you to realise how much i noticed you, how much i cared for you, and how much i appreciate the time we shared together.
Your smile blinded me
Your voice enticed me
Your hugs, your cries, and even your presence
Made me happy
But what made me happier were
Our hugs and our fights and every singel thing we did together because that was my happiness.
I dont want an answer, and i dont want sympathy. All i want is to not regret, never confessing my feelings you too.
So now that you know, i want you to throw away this letter , even burn it if you want , you can even forget all about me and my confession. Because now you know ....and thats enough for me to move on .
Thank you for being thier, for being my best friend and for reading my last goodbye.
Sincerly : your best friend
