Dont Judge Me (niall horan fanfic)

He did what!?!

~~~~~~~~~skylers P.O.V~~~~~~~~

I watch as he sang to me and my heart fluttered as he walked my way

"Hey girlfriend!" he says excited

"Hey boyfriend!"

" I have really bad migraine so i think I'm gonna go back to the house, ok?" I say with a pained expression on my face

" Ok, i'll go with you" Niall said though i can tell he wants to stay

"No its ok babe. I'm ok." I say as i am waving him goodbye

I will see him and the guys tonight when they get home anyways, right?

I got into my car and drove home quietly

I went inside and took some Advil for my migraine , put on a spaghetti strap tank top , and some soffe shorts then crawled in bed and drifted asleep peacefully.

I woke up to a knock on the door. i figured the guys would forget their keys! so i hopped out of bed and unlocked the door. it was only Niall though and he was wasted, with a capital W!

" Hey baby. lets go!" He grabbed my hand and i followed him unsure of what he was doing

He dragged me to his room and threw me onto the bed.

"Whats going on niall?!" i say angrily

"baby i want you so bad right now" he slurred almost inaudibly.

"No niall!" I yell as he jumps ontop of me , holding me down firmly

"I know you want me babe" he said. i gagged at the strong smell of alcohol on his breath. But he was right, i do want him. i always have. But not like this, this isn't how i want to remember our first time together. i wanted it to be special.  not a drunken mess.

He stripped down to his bare body. and then the same to me without a second of thought.

He kissed my lips but i refused to kiss back and give him what he wanted so badly.

"Kiss me back, bitch!" He yelled. i gave in and followed his orders. the memories came flooding back to me all at once. I caught a glimpse of his eyes. They were so cold and so distant. Like this meant nothing. It just wasn't Niall. It can't be.

I remember my father hurting and beating me as i scream for help and no response is given. The same distant glare on his face. And in those moments, he was no longer my caring father, he was my abuser. Usually i would try block everything out.... But tonight i couldn't even attempt to try to block out Niall. i was too shocked and disgusted. i obey his orders like a little slave, because i knew he could hurt me, badly. he was strong. even more strong than my father.

He held my hands above my head as he steadied at my entrance. He shot me a dark glare as to tell me not to fight.

He trusted into me heavily and slow, causing a pained cry to escape from my lips. He brought his mouth to my neck and lightly sacked on the sensitive skin under my ear, nibbling on my earlobe before pulling away. His hands traveled to my breast as he massaged them.

"fuck, your so tight sky" he moaned

his thrusts were so steady and rythmic. Repeatedly i had to remind myself that this monster ontop of me is not the same man i fell in love with.

"please just stop niall. Please baby, this isn't you." i pleaded once again

"stop?" he laughed dryly "Im not done yet"

he kept driving into me until his thrusts became sloppy and i watched him come undone.

After almost an hour of torture Niall was tired and gasping for air, whereas i was too deep in shame to even breathe.

-next morning- :'(

I get up , managing to wiggle from Niall's grip. i walk to the bathroom extremely sore, i look at the bruises and sigh in pain. i hear a voice downstairs. i walk down the stairs in silence. i see Harry's eyes widen when he sees me. I feel so dirty and used....

"OH MY GOD, sky! did you get jumped or something?" he said protectively

"Umm... I'm fine" i lied in a whisper

"What?"

" I said I'm fine, Harry! Leave it alone."

i had expected harry to go back to whatever he was doing before but of course, he wouldn't leave me be.

"No. Your not fine, Skyler. Tell me what's wrong." i looked up into his pleading green eyes. "Please." he whispered.

"Well... w- when Niall came home, he kinda wanted to do some things that i didn't so... he kinda forced me to do those things" i mutter trying to avoid the word rape. i hate saying that stupid word. I put my knees up to my chest and my face in my hands. I began to cry hysterically.

I look up and Harry's eyes were full of so many things, hate, despise, guilt, shock, disgust and jealousy... jealousy?

"HE RAPED YOU!!!!" he yelled at the top of his lungs causing the remaining four guys to quickly run downstairs. When i saw nialls face come down the stairs i shoved my face into my hands again, not wanting him to see me cry over him.

" What the bloody hell is going on!" louis screamed

"Niall raped Skyler last night!" Harry yell. i could feel them stare at me crying so i do my best to stop and by the way their mouthes made "o" shapes i could tell they had seen my dark purple bruises around my neck and arms

I caught a glimpse of Niall and he looked like he was about to puke, cry, and faint all at the same time

" Im so so sorry princess, i di- " he was suddenly punched in the jaw by harry.

And as he fell to the floor in pain the four guys rushed over and squeezed me nearly to death.

"Owwww " i moaned in pain

They back off and say their sorry in unison

I see Niall stand up holding his jaw bone

" Can i have a moment with Niall." they all nod and leave willingly except Harry . he tried to stay behind and protect me but i shot him some mean glares and he climbed the stairs reluctantly.

I wait for Niall to say something

"Im so sorry,sky. i was drunk and i didn't know what i was doi-" i cut him off

" I dont want to hear it! i told you what my father did to me! i told you how he abused and raped me! then you go and do the same exact things! how could you!" i scream running into the nearest door and locking it. I thought i could handle having a conversation with him but it's clearly a horrible idea. Every time he looks at me i just see the monster from last night. When i turn around i see harry there, sitting on the bed shirtless.... oh boy....