Bade + Solaris | ✔

6. look☼

  "It seems to me we can never give up longing and wishing while we are still alive. There are certain things we feel to be beautiful and good, and we must hunger for them."
― George Eliot

solaris

I really didn't want to be at the bonfire. All the people who despised me were here, and I was pretty sure Chandler was going to approach me. But we hadn't been exclusive or anything, and besides, it was a bad decision I had made on my part. I should've known better.

"Solaris are you okay?" Bade asked me. He looked a little concerned. But I shrugged him off, and attempted a genuine smile. 

"Yeah, I'm fine," was my response. "I'm just a little overwhelmed. I've never been to a party or bonfire."

I looked around the yard where tents were set up, and people were walking around, and some were huddled around the bonfire; chilling and socializing.

I spotted an ice chest. "Hey, Bade, I'm going to get a Mountain Dew. Do you want anything?"

He looked at me and smiled. "Yeah, sure. A Dr Pepper. Thanks."

As I walked over to the ice chest, I was stopped immediately by Rena Elliot. She looked at me with disdain, and sized me up like she was criticizing the way I looked. "Why are you here?" She spat. "You got Chandler, and now you have Bade?"

I tried to look unaffected by her words, and didn't try making eye contact with her. But I did respond. "I'm sure you're completely aware of there being no electricity, right? Bade and I just decided to hang out because of that very thing. So please, Rena, don't jump to conclusions like you always do."

Rena laughed at me and crossed her arms. "You're such a skank. And you think you look so fucking hardcore with your chokers, and your eye make up. I hate bitches like you."

Her words would not affect me. "Rena, you're acting like the bitch. I was invited to the party like everybody else here."

"Chandler wouldn't want you here."

"I don't even see him."

"He's avoiding you."

I walked past her without saying anything. I understand that she was Chandler's girlfriend now, but why did she have to confront me? There were other girls he'd been with.

I felt sick to my stomach even thinking about that.

Chandler was a user, and a manipulator. And I felt even more sick just thinking about seeing him. I wished I could've told Bade everything. But I didn't want him to look at me differently. Besides Kai Woods, he was the only other person who talked to me from school. Even if it was only due to the fact that the power and electricity was out. He was still a pretty cool guy.

When I found my way back to Bade, he was talking to a girl who looked familiar. Her hair was up in a ponytail, her eyes were the color blue, and she wore a tank top, capris leggings, and a pair of Bobs.

She stood awfully close to Bade.

I was about to walk away from Bade and the familiar girl, but he saw me and called me over. "Solaris, over here!"

I stopped walking, and with enough guts, I turned around and walked over to him and the girl who would be taking Bade away from me.

He was a likable guy, and was very friendly. He had a nice smile, and was really nice to talk to. What girl wouldn't like Bade?

I pushed the uneasy feeling down in my stomach, and said to them both, "Hello."

Bade grabbed the soda I got for him from my hands. He then decided to introduce the girl. "Solaris this is Amelia."