Something In The Water

Standing with Him

We were at her burial...

We being me and my best friend's crush, Jacob , there were a few other people there such as her mom, dad, uncles, aunts, brothers, and her newborn sister who was born 3 days before she died and 5 days before her burial. So, let's make a long story short by saying that my dead friend, Elissa, never got to see her first and only sister .

This was the saddest day of my life, and yet, I still managed to ruin my life and her after-life by doing the unthinkable.

So, I was basically turning my back on my dead friend, no ... my dead best friend.

Now I bet you're wondering what I did that was so bad, well I was lying to her the whole time, honestly the entire time that we knew Jacob Conwell, I secretly had the hugest crush on him, I felt like if I told Elissa she would bottle up her feelings so that I could have a chance with him (at least, that's what I did), and I didn't want her to be a helpless wreck of mixed emotions and insanity so I decided to do the thing that I had prevented her from doing, and I stood shut, I made sure that she got as close to him as possible, and I must've succeeded because he's here isn't he, he's actually at her burial so he must've cared about her, right?

On top of all of that, I still manage to screw up again!

Can you imagine how much of a bad friend I felt like.

I was in his arms crying, but not because we were dating or I was flirting.

It was because I couldn't help it, I was crying so hard that a lept into the closest arms possible for comfort and it just so happened to be his arms that I fell into, and while rivulets of water and tears poured down my cheeks, I couldn't help but hold him closer and watch as he did the same.