I'll Be With You // VMinKook

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J U N G K O O K

It's almost two years since I moved in to this place. At first when I'm still new here, my hope is really high that in any days, I will be living as a normal person again. But these days, months, and years, nothing happened. I think living in this world is worthless because all I can feel is my sick is getting worst.

Sometimes, all I can think of is how can I rest in peace.

When will I stop to endure this pain? Until when will I wait just to be back as a normal person?

My everyday question in my life.....

"Jungkook, how many times do I have to tell you that you're prohibited to go out?! You left this place without my permission! And you really went to that freaking shop?!" My older hyung scolding me for what I've done ----- Jin hyung. He's looking at me with his both hands on his waist. While I'm just laying on my bed and just staring at the scenery from the window.

The sun is already setting. In any seconds right now, this room will be filled with darkness. A darkness that symbolizes the fear that I'm feeling it right now. I don't like sunset and I also don't like to wait for the sun to rise. I hate waiting because some things don't come to you when you wait.

"You know that I want to go out of this place. I know that you won't let me go out so I sneaked out." A simple explanation coming from me.

"You know your situation right now. What do you expect me to do? How cou--" I cutted off his sentence.

"Yes, I know it. That's why I want to get out of this place and pretend that I'm living like the other people. I don't want to just lay here in my bed and do nothing. I want to do everything freely before I'll rest. That's just simple."

"Don't say that, Jungkook. Have trust because you'll be healed someday." Hyung, I can't.

The room was filled with silence. I shut my eyes, trying to stop the evidence of pain inside me. But like my situation right now, there's no way to escape. The only way to escape is to run away from the reality and believe to the lie that everything will be alright.

I heard that Jin hyung talked again. "I have to go. Just stay here, okay?" I didn't open my eyes so I heard Jin hyung called my name to seek for my attention. After that, I opened my eyes and looked straightly to his eyes. "Everything I'm doing, this is all for you. Remember that because I'm also having a hard time but I'm enduring it just for you." I didn't respond to it that's why he decided to just leave but he bid a farewell to me first before leaving.

I was left in the room that looks so empty and now I also feel empty. Sometimes, I asked a question to God. 'Why did you let me live when you'll just let me suffer from this pain?' But I didn't get the answer. But when the days flew so fast, I forgot my question and just continue living. I want God to let me live as a normal person.

But I have a one thing that I want to experience it.

All I want is someone who treats me like I'm special for him and I'm important to him. I don't want them to pity me just because I'm suffering from a pain. All I want is to accompany me.

Just that......