i always hated funerals there were long and boring, but the fact that i am the dead person was even worst. There never found my body so it was just an empty coffin. i hated the fact of seeing loved ones cry.
My father He is all heartbroken even thought he was not crying his heart was broken never to be fixed. my grandma was their she new exactly what to say at anything. she was the best. me and my nana did shopping and we hung out a lot more then my mother and me did. she was in her 60s but she tells everyone she is 33 years old she looks it i think she says it because she don't want to appetite she is old. my mother was crying on my fathers shoulder and she did not hold back any tears, there all fell and they were all for me which was the worst part.there fell one after the other like rain when it comes everyone is sad for you cant go out side, so you wait till it stops, but for my mother it was not stopping.
The priest said some beautiful things about me.
buitly"as she is lost she will never be forgotten for she was the light in everyones heart and will never go out"
my mother placed a simple white rose. it held so much beauty in one flower, as she laid it down 3 tears fell from her cheek and landed on my coffin. 1,2,3 one after the other. the feeling of these tears brings me too tears for i will never get to cry over a death or wedding. tears can mean so many things joy, happy , losses. i was feeling loses the worst feeling ever.
After the secormoney was finish everyone left to the after party, wannest really a party it’s not fun. Everyone payed there respected and said “sorry for you loss” the tipural shit that was boring i wish it was more fun then maybe people may forget i am dead. i know my death was sad but i always wished when i died people would be having fun for the fact i gave them so much so be happy and celebrate me being on earth for a period of time.
“davied i am leaving. i cant handle being with you anymore” my mother said
“what are you talking about?” my father questioned in fear.
“i am moving far away i cant sleep in the same house bella did, it sickness me.”
“you cant leave what about jade she needs you the most, now.”
“ i am sorry i am going now, i cant heddle it, its too hard”
"its hard for everyone but do you see me crying my daughter is dead and i think its about time we face it because our daughter that is alive, jade needs us and we cant leave her. for gods sake we just got her to leave her room and go to school, she never eats. how can you say its too hard when i feel like killing every person i walk past"
With that my mother gave a node and left in tears, not a word else to say just walked away from her family.My mother was scared and lost. she missed me so much she couldn't bear it to be in the house i once slept in. my father never stopped her, he just watched her walk away from fear.
after that my father never stop looking for me even though the police said i was gone he didn't believe it, even with so much everdives he just keep hope. he held a photo to ever street and knock on ever door to see if their saw me even thou it was a bit late for all this but he didn't stop. he went though flies on people on our street when he stop on Mr Havely, Mr Havely was a 64 year old with a long bread and black hair and yes he was the one who killed me. i never reilsed that until i watch my dad knock on his door. i never notice him on my street i only remember my mother talking to him about his garden and how beautiful it was. now it was dead and gone.
“have you seen this girl she is my daughter she it missing” my father said to him.
“Sorry, i haven’t” and with that lieing dick he closed the door on my dad.
He held my necklace in his hand that devil, he shouldnt even be alive, i should. i watched. his heart so ice cold. he laid back on a wooden chair he just sat there looking at the necklace it had a ‘b’ and star i loved it and i never took it of. the b was for my name and the star was beocuse i had an opsetion with stars and that there held so much magic, power and dreams. stars cant shine without darkness.
Stars hold so much misserry their look so small in the sky, when there large so large we can see them when their glaxelys aways, whitch is amazing. Their hold dreams of childen and wishes hoping they will come true one day, but never do. They give a child a chance of hope. stars are a misery and even if one says "loving you is like trying to touch the stars i know i can never reach you but i cant help but try" all of this is from stars that are in the sky.
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After life
Adventure“The best way to predict the future is to create it" My favourite quote my younger sister told me it, now that i look at it i hate it because i am gone not gone from home or school, but gone from earth. i am dead on October 31, 1985 i was murdered...
