After life

15 "i want her back"

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still luke prov-----

my mind was going back and fall in circles. what was she doing here? i coundn'et quit understand.

"hey luke what are you doing here?" i was lost she seem like something happed she looked fine, happy.

"i was wondering the same thing" i asked is a stern voice.

"i have been with Bella's mum helping her, trying to make her come home. i dont know about you but when i came to take my respect to Bella's father she was hurt bad she looked dead full" she stoped to take a set in frount of me and went on "i knew where she had went she always talked about living in sherwood so i came down here right after school and found her in worst state then her husbands. so i got a job so i could live here for the summer and try and help out. i know Bella would do the same for me, know why are you here?"

i was trying to take in all she had told me, its like Bella had gone into her mind as we and told her to do this. 

"i, i am going the same thing as you, Bella told me too"  that satment seemed to shock her a little.

after having the biggest burger ever i walked with olivia back to her place. she told me she was saying with Bella's mum and i needed to talk to her and tell she needs to come home and be a mother to her other daghter Jade.

we approched a small run down home, it scared me. the shatters were coming of the windows and paint was pilling of the walls. beer bottles lyed everywhere, they must of had a party. or just one deprested lady.

"sorry i didnt have time to clean and fix the place up, she wont move and i am working all the time and i had to rent out this house beocuse i had no choice, i was actully really lucky to get this place there were going to noke it down. lucky there didnt." olivia infored me what was going on but this can't be Bella has been dead for ages now, she can't still feel sad.

olivia pointed to a door, it was close. just by olivia's face i could tell who was behind it and i was walking stright into it. as i pushed open the door a lord creak came from it. there layed in the ghost of the shadows was a women, sorrowed by her sorrows. she didnt move she just stered at the darkness that suroned her. 

"hello, its luke, luke the one Bella used to be best friends with when we were young" 

she turned around slowy, now looking into her eyes i knew she had been crying non stop.

"i can all this way to talk to you." nothing she just sat their looking into my soul "i understand that your hurt about Bella" 

"dont you dare speack her name you knew nothing of her, only when you were little you did" she cut me of she voice was stroungh and she hurt me but i wasn't going anywhere not tonight not tomrrow. i moved around the bed and sat next to her.

"you may not want to here it but your just going to have to listen" i spork strong "Bella is dead and you may never come to terms with that and i am fine with that, but you cant keep doing this. you family Jade and your husband need you more then ever you were they rock and Jade want move of eat. your husband want work, all he think about is you, he doesnt want to loose you too." i stopped she looked up into my eyes, then back down to her hands like she was looking for anwers.

"i understand you are hurting but know is enough, you need to move on before Jade gives up on herself and you loose her too. stop feeling sorry for yourself and do what Bella would want you too do and help you family and move the fuck on, stop this bullshit and care for your family. and let Bella be free of worry" 

"i cant" 

her answer was short and quite like a bullet to the head. i felt pain know.

"why?"

"Bella was my daghter i loved her more then anything, she was my starts earth and moon. without her i feel lost." she plused "i CAN'T GO HOME . when i see JADE  i only see Bella, it makes me sick" she screamed and then started to cry.

i counldn't understand, i never lost someone so close to me. all my family are still alive. i've only really lost Bella not once but twice, why did i ever break my promise to her?

"i know what you mean" i stoped scared from my next words and facing the truth "i lost Bella, i lost that one person i ever truly loved. i not only lost her when she died but when we stoped being friends." i stoped and my last word werent to Bella's mum but to Bella herslef "i am sorry Bella, i broke my promise" i said under my breath.

i never really faced the truth before but i loved her so much. i always looked at her in class trying to say something but never doing it. liam would tell me over and over again just talk to her. sure we talked but not like we used to. i missed her more then anyhing right know. and i know Bella would feel really bad right know knowing there is anther one who wants her back.