Percy
From there my depression spiraled.
I didn't leave my room that night. Kept the door locked so nobody bothered me and I didn't bother anyone else. Mom knocked after a few hours and said lunch was done. I didn't eat. Dinner. I didn't eat. She made cookies. I didn't eat.
Because I knew my dad was out there still and so was Daniel and Alex and the twins and everyone and...
Why am I such a burden to everyone?
My Mom and Dad didn't even plan on having me. Daniel barely calls me his brother because he never wanted to death with a little brother. Okay, we constantly argued until he ran away. All I did was drag down mom. Force her to marriage a dick she didn't care about and who didn't care about us. Paul has always hated me. Whether he would say it to my face or not, he does. So does his kids. I scare Alex. It just...
I can't do it.
I don't think you can understand what that feels like. To be lied to about something like that my whole life and find out the truth by accidentally listening in on a conversation not involving me.
I was always told we were half brothers and that his dad died. When I found out we weren't I figured dad left and came back looking different. Maybe a different mortal disguise name. I mean, Zeus did it with Thalia and Jason.
But no. He stayed and raised his kid for 13 years.
I didn't know my dad until I was 13.
And he left because of me. Because Mom was pregnant and that meant he has to leave.
I was a mistake. I wasn't planned. They wish I wasn't born. They all do.
And God dammit, I never wished for it, either.
I think it was 11:30 at night when Nico came in from the fire escape, looking worried sick.
The only person that ever cared was Nico. Even if he didn't show it. He did. Grover doesn't anymore. Annabeth hates me. Tyson could care less.
"Percy, what happened?" He quietly asked, knowing people were asleep and I realized if he would've tried calling my phone is out there. Where I haven't been all day," oh my gods, you look terrible. I tried calling, texting, everything. For the past 6 hours. You haven't answered anything."
"My phones in the living room," I explained.
"What happened?"
I had to contain myself as I felt my eyes well up.
"I was lied and deceived to," I told Nico," for 17 years. By my mom, my brother, and my dad. Not Paul. My actual dad. My actual mom and Daniel."
"About what?" He asked, sitting down next to me, taking my hand and Drawing with his thumb on my palm to help calm me down," I mean to get you like this it must be bad."
"We were always told we were half siblings, which turns out we weren't, I thought maybe over time different mortal disguise. I mean, that's what happened to Jason and Thalia, right?"
"Yeah, but I mean what's the difference?"
"The difference is that I was constantly told Daniel never knew his dad. He was told he died. He wasn't around anymore. It happened before he was born. So on and so forth. And when we got here our Dad was here talking with Mom and Paul and they recognized each other. And they three start talking and I just happened to hear that for 13 years my dad stuck around to raise Daniel and to be his dad. For 13 years. The only reason he left was because my mother got pregnant and left half way through her second trimester. Turns out my parents never wanted me in the first place. But Mom didn't want to abort because it's a kid. Daniel tried killing me when Mom would sleep while she was pregnant and when I was a baby he'd give me thing in hoping that I'd choke and die because I took away his dad and that's the whole reason he left. He just went and lived with Dad until he was 25 and went to college. The only one who didn't say they hated me was Paul. My mom said I was a disappointment compared to my brother. My dad said he never wanted me and he hated what he got out of it. Daniel said he hates little brats like me and he wants me to kill myself. Nobody said anything against it."
