Headphones - a connor ball and bradley simpson fanfic

Chapter 12 - i want you

Chapter 12

"I know rach, but its not like im serious with either of them, its only for 2 weeks. not even that! 12 days now." i murmured. Rachael seemed really disappointed in me, i hadnt properly thought through the situation but i know that 2 weeks cant affect any ones life that much can it?

"You just dont understand what youre doing elle! clearly connor really likes you, its obvious! and Brad! Brad fucking said that he loves you! youre going to end up hurting them both! you could split up the vamps and you have no idea how many lives that will affect. i know you only think that they are stupid fangirls but some of them actually rely on their music to get through the day; you just dont understand what youre actually doing. also, what about tristan and i? if he knows that im friends with the girl who ruined his future and got 2 of his best friends to hate each other then he'll never talk to me again and i really like him. im quite serious about this one elle. i just want you to think through what you are doing before you do it." she spat at me. those words really sunk in. i never realized how many lives i could ruin with 1 thing that seemed so small (well fair enough connor would be hurt) could kill friendships and split up a band which would ruin all their futures and also affect so many fans of theirs. i never though on what scale this could go to- and i really liked connor as well. i could feel my self tearing up from the guilt of what i might cause- a tear rolled down my cheek and i was gone.

"im so sorry rachael" i bawled, "i never thought of the consequences and i really like connor and ive ruined it and i just dont want what you said to happen" i breathed, tears began streaming faster and faster and my breathing quickened. i began to shake and hyperventilate as the tears poured from my eyes. i hated the thought of what i could do. i hated the thought of hurting connor; why hadnt i noticed this before: "im inlove with connor" i said, more of an outloud thought than a reply, but i was. i loved everything about him: his voice, his hair, his smile, the way he lit up when i told him i liked him, and his eyes; his wonderful perfect eyes. i could stare into them forever. i could be with him forever. it became clear that this was not going to be a 2 week thing.

Between my sobs I heard Rachael say something, I turned to see what she was doing and saw the phone pressed against her ear! Was she telling them! Why would she do that? she hung up the phone and I looked at her in anticipation,

"Sort yourself out," she smiled, "tris is picking us up in 5 minutes" her smile grew wider the more she spoke about him; she really did like him! Within minutes tris arrived and we hopped into the car: I was still unsure as to what rach and tris were, whether they were official or not but either way they seemed so happy! She planted a quick kiss on his cheek as we got in and they both blushed as I struggled my way into the back seat of the little Audi. We arrived at the house and I felt butterflies in my stomach, who were they for? brad or connor?

As soon as I got through the door I heard music blaring out, I walked to find it and saw Connor listening to one of my favourite bands; fall out boy. He was turned the other way so I snuck up behind him and wrapped my arms around his muscular torso, singing along with the music. He spun to look at me so that our foreheads were pressed together: his eyes staring into mine singing the words so beautifully it sent shivers down my spine. He moved his head closer and rested his cheek on mine sending sparks all through my body still singing the words. between verses he whispered softly into my ear "i need to talk to you," shit, does he know about brad? my heart started to beat faster and my breathing became heavy and quick. he dragged me over to the kitchen, my breathing fast and my heart feeling like it was going to break out of my chest as sweat formed upon my brow; "look elle, i know that youre only here for 12 more days but i erm i.. well what i wanted to say was that i, i erm- i think im inlove with you elle," the situation all became too much for me and i felt a tear roll down my cheek. his cold, large hand came up to my face and wiped the tear away as i smiled into his eyes, "elle, i really do love you," he smiled, "and i would really really love it if you would be my girlfriend?" he asked, his voice shaking towards the end, i love how nervous he could be. he smiled weakly at me as i paused to think about what he just said; that smile was my answer, just the smile and the feeling of his hands on my face and i knew what my answer was. i pulled my new boyfriend into a tight embrace as i began to cry some more. he pulled away and wiped my face "i'll put lord of the rings on and you can go clean yourself up my sweet" he spoke softly, his words like a song. i loved this boy. i went up the large staircase and came out onto an unfamiliar landing, id never been upstairs so i just went into the first room i saw and cleaned my face up in the large mirror on the wardrobe door. as i finished i saw a muscular body appear in the mirror behind me; i turned around to see a shiny, wet, muscly torso with just a small towel wrapped around his waist. He rubbed his head with the towel, drying his hair and allowing his chocolate curls to fall around his face.