The Bio of a Carter

Chapter 2

Another restless night so today the pain was like a 6-7 and then at lunch I was sitting by the most amazing girl ever her beautiful blonde hair and smile but that's just a part of her it's not even the beginning of why she's flawless. She has so much compassion. She's so selfless. She's a strong Christian girl. She's country. She has such a great attitude toward everything. She's my world

But I screwed up big time I let here read my letter that I wanted to show her someday. And after she read it she acted as if I was a freak a little kid I looked into her eyes and she told me she could never date me I was to close to her I was like a brother to her. Just imagine the 2nd most important thing in the world says that y'all can't ever date. She was all I want and I still want. I know girls think I'm a ho or a slut or I just want to go around from girl to girl.

And hurts but I probably deserved her telling me no. But the way she looked at me after she read made me think I had a chance but then she moved her leg away from mine and I almost started crying because the girl that I have wanted for awhile turned me down with no regard.as I gazed into those beautiful eyes a part of me died then I knew part began to grow called depression then I zoned out  I still hurt but ig it was time No man could have said better than God for those who lift themselves up shall be put down but those who are put down shall be lifted up.

You know love is over used but i don't use it unless I mean it and I truly loved her she made me feel amazing and whole if I could have anything it would be to make her happy. Now you may be thinking why don't you wish for her to be with her because if I did then I would be being selfish but I want her to be happy cause she is my world.

Night 3

Pain 5

I know that I'm not attractive or funny or really just anything that a girl would want. But I just can't stop liking you your everything I want your everything that I need and you probably could care less about what I want or what I care about but this isn't me asking you out again this is me apologizing for asking you out. I am truly sorry that I thought a girl as amazing as you would want a relationship with a guy like me I'm sorry.