He's not dead! I roll over to see empty sheets... No! He's probably just having breakfast or at Reeves' gym.
I gather an old T-shirt of Cole's and a pair of jeans and rush into the bathroom.
When I look into the mirror I almost jump back. I look horrible!
My hair is all knotted and my mascara has smeared all down my cheeks.
I strip and hop into the shower.
When I get out the bathroom looks more like a sauna. I quickly get dressed and walk slowly down the stairs when I hear Gavin's voice.
"Poor Ali" Gavin says as before he takes a sip out of his mug.
Gavin is still here, he must have slept on the couch.
"Oh yeah poor me" I say sarcastically.
Em, Nana and Gavin turn to look at me. "Ali-" Gavin starts
"No! I'm sick of all the pity!" I scream at him.
He looks at me, shocked by my sudden burst of anger. To be honest so was I. I can't believe I screamed like that in front of Em.
But I do hate it. We have better things to worry about. We have no leader anymore! What are we going to do? What am I going to do? Nope! Nope! Nope! Not going there! I'm not going to wallow in self pity, I have more important things to do, I can get through this.
I run back up stairs and slam the door behind me. I jump on to my bed and scream into my pillow while kicking my legs.
I'm acting like a three year old who just got told they couldn't get a lolly. How pathetic! I scream more.
What the hell is wrong with me?
"Alice?" I hear Cole's voice.
