CoffeeMate || Creek

Chapter 11 | It's Not Love

Tweek's POV:

I hear the familiar sound of my alarm on this horrible Thursday morning. I skipped school yesterday and I knew I couldn't miss another day. Sighing, I got up and changed into my clothes. Skipping school was probably the worst thing I could have done.

I brushed my teeth and started making some coffee. It was 6:30 am, which means I still had plenty of time before school starts. I pulled out my phone after hearing a familiar ringtone. It was the song 'I'm Bringing Sexy Back' and Clyde had set the song as his ringtone without me knowing.

I clicked the answer button and put my phone to my ear, "Hello? Why are you up so early?"

"Hey Tweekerz, how are you? You're coming to school right?" He asked calmly.

"I'm good and yes I am going to school today. Why do you ask?" I asked as I walked back upstairs to grab my backpack.

"Oh because Craig is worried sick about you! He was asking everyone where you were yesterday. Poor guy, he couldn't even text you because you never gave him your number." Clyde said dramatically.

"I highly doubt any of that was true, and he never asked for my number so he doesn't get to have it." I said smiling to myself. I put my backpack by the door and went back into the kitchen.

"Ahh you caught me. Well anyways I wanted to ask you about your feelings for Craig. Do you love him back?" Clyde asked probably smirking on his side of the call.

I froze in place, because I've never thought about it that much. The reason I stayed home was to think that over, but I ended up confusing myself even more.

"I uh, why do you ask such a stupid question? And what do you mean love him back? He doesn't love me, we barely can call each other friends!" I said starting to twitch. Thinking about all this was too much pressure, and I don't want to think about it. Craig doesn't love me.

"Tweek calm down its just a question, don't get so defensive. Do you really not know how Craig feels? Shouldn't you talk to him about that?" Clyde asked.

"I'm not being defensive, it was a stupid question in the first place. Craig doesn't love me, I already know that. Our kiss meant nothing." I yelled clearly frustrated.

"Did you just say you two kissed?" Clyde asked waiting silently. I hung up and put my phone away. I didn't mean to bring it up, why am I so stupid? Now I'm going to be expected to answer that question later on.

Sighing, I poured myself a cup of coffee into a canteen. I put on my backpack and walked outside, making sure I locked the door behind me. I began my short, quite, and cold walk to school. Every few steps I sipped my coffee, warming my mouth a little.

Once I got to school I hoped to avoid Craig as much as possible. Unfortunately, he was the first person I saw, well first out of two. He was talking to Kenny, and they were hanging around by the water fountain.

I looked away as soon as he turned my way, I could feel his eyes on me. I hope he doesn't expect for me to walk up to him. What is he even doing with Kenny anyway? Last time I saw them together Craig was disturbed by his flirting. It doesn't matter anyway, he can see whoever he wants.

I continued walking towards my locker, still hoping Craig won't bother me today. I heard footsteps behind me, so I walked faster. When I got to my locker Craig was right behind me. He was holding his art book, well more like hugging it.

"Hey Tweek, where were you yesterday?" he asked leaning against the long row of lockers. He was smiling but I could tell it was a fake smile.

"I was sick so I stayed home, sorry if I worried you. Also, about what happened on Tuesday, that kiss meant nothing." I said looking down. There was a small silence, and I awkwardly opened up my locker.

"Tweek..I uh get what you mean, and I know it probably meant nothing to you. But when we kissed, I felt something." He said starting to blush.

     I continued to stare into my locker, "What do you mean? Did you feel disgust?"

     "No! I felt a spark, I felt something there, and I can still feel it now." He said clutching his art book.

     The only thing I could do was stare into my locker, I couldn't look at him. I don't want to look at him. I grabbed my notebook and shut my locker, quickly walking away.

     Craig grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. I tried getting away, but he held me still. I tried to look anywhere but in his eyes, but I couldn't help but look up.

     "Tweek listen to me. I really did feel something, and I want to tell you how I feel." Craig said desperately.

     "What? What did you feel then? Just tell me already!" I said starting to raise my voice.

     "I felt love! I love you Tweek! I finally realize that, I love you." He said staring into my eyes. I stared back surprised, I didn't expect him to say that. I didn't want him to say that. Does this mean I have to tell him how I feel too? How do I feel? Do I love him too? No, I can't love him. I don't deserve Craig.

"Craig I...I can't. I don't know what to feel. You don't love me, it was just the heat of the moment." I said stuttering with my words. I couldn't think properly.

"No it wasn't that Tweek, I can feel it in my heart. I love you." Craig said again trying to make me believe him. But I couldn't believe him.

"No you don't. You can't. I'm sorry that I ended up being your soulmate, I'm the worst." I said on the verge of tears. I was able to get out of his grasp and I turned to walk away again. He grabbed my arm and kept me still. Craig stared down at the floor, not moving.

     "Tweek, you can't tell me how to feel. I finally came to the realization that I love you, you can't change that. This was meant to happen, that's why we're soulmates. I just want to know how you feel. Do you even like me?" Craig asked choking on his words. He looked up and his eyes were full of tears. My chest was hurting, and I felt my eyes start to water.

     "No, forget about me. Just forget about me, find someone else. Just leave me alone Craig." I said walking away as the tears began to roll down my cheek. I couldn't deal with this right now. I hurt him, I left him there sad and confused. I really am just a horrible person.

     I'm sorry Craig.

((A/N: I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON! I left you all hanging and I sincerely apologize! I'm back and not as busy now, so expect "weekly" updates. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, BECAUSE ITS ABOUT TO GET REAL KIDS!" Grab your popcorn for next chapter! Thankyou for reading!))