Since day one

Do I?

Mikasa's Pov

''So do you love him or at the very least, like him?'' Charolette asks, tilting her head to the side a bit. I opened and closed my mouth, trying to find an answer to her question. I look at the bowl on the table and then look at the window. I mean, yes I like him, I dont hate him or anything but I know that, that isnt what she was talking about. Do I like him, much more, do I _love_ him?I play with the edge of my blanket before looking back up at her.

''Honestly...I dont know. I mean I never really had experienced this kind of....feeling before.'' I said, kind of confindent with my answer. 

''Well if you never experienced it before, then how do you know that you are not feeling that for him right now?'' Charolette asks, her brown eyes curious. Once again I am stumped, I...I dont know. She is right, I guess, how will I know if I am feeling it or not? What if I already fallen in love with him and just not know it? She stares at me waiting for my reply, then luckily Armin comes in, giving the both of us a distraction from the question.

''Hey Mikasa. Hey...Charolette.'' He says, his cheeks slightly pink. Charolette squeaks out a greeting then leaves the room, waving at me as she left. Armin looks slightly sad at her departure then goes back to normal as he sits on my bed.

''So what did you guys talks about?'' He asks, playing with the bangs of his hair. 

''Nothing much, just girl stuff.'' I said, rubbing my leg. Armin's eyes follows my movement.

''Does your leg still hurt? I could go get a nurse or-'' Armin says before I stop him.

''No, no. Its fine, just a bit stiff.'' I said, in an effort to calm my friend's nerves. He relaxes then lays on my bed, looking at the ceiling.

''So you know that Levi is still doing patrols and stuff, so that someone will find Xavier, right?'' He asks, looking to me. 

''Yeah.'' I replied. I know that for the past two weeks, Levi has been making search teams so they could figure out where Xavier went off to.

''I personally hope that Xavier gotten eaten by a titan, but Levi says that, that he hadnt, because on their patrols they have been finding dead titan bodies on the ground, slashed at the nape.'' Armin says, sliding his finger across his neck, proving his point. ''He says it means that Xavier had also stolen some of our supplies.'' He says, getting up.  ''So...is Charolette coming back?'' He asks shyly.

''No..probably not.'' I said, scratching my nose. Armin looks at me then looks at the door, unsure of something. ''Yes Armin you can leave if you want to, I know you came in here because you wanted to see Charolette.'' I said, smiling a bit. Armin blushes and thanks me before running out. I laid back down after he left and put my arm over my face. Maybe I should take a nap, its almost night. I then rolled over and went to sleep.

*Middle of Night*

I woke up some time later, when I felt something around my neck. I open my eyes to see Xavier in my room, his hands around my neck, sitting on my chest.

''Well, well, well, looks who's awake. Sleeping Bitch.'' he snarls out, his fingers digging into my neck. I struggle to kick him off, but his legs have a firm grip on mine. I open my mouth to try to scream before I realized that something had been place over my mouth.

''See? Its hard to scream with ducktape over your mouth.'' He says, his grip getting tighter. ''You should've have died when the titan was after you. But that damn Levi had to rescue you, but don't worry I took care of him as I took care of your friends. Now I will take care of you.'' He says as everything starts to fade to black.