My mum tells me I'm not allowed to wear all black or be depressed, so I contain it all. I feel like it can be too much sometimes. I think I have seasonal depression because it's always the worst during, like, winter. I'm already a hot mess so I'm quite terrified of how I will be in just a few months. I feel suffocated by all the standards I feel the need to live up to. I have to wear this and be this skinny, and get good grades. Like I just said, it's suffocating. I have to know all these inside jokes, I just want to be able to be not okay sometimes, and people be fine with that. I am apparently, not allowed to share my opinion. *cough* cough* sudden flashback to when I almost got kicked out of class for being sarcastic and also honest...*cough*
I had a looping dream of tyjo last night and it was him, but he looked disappointed and sad and in the the dream I was on the floor bleeding and crying and ashamed. I can't decode what it meant but, idk honestly. It was the same images over and over again. But I'm okay. I have made a family tree. It's horrid.bye.
Stay alive....@|~/*%{£#}'
Lolzor sorry I'm bored ^ doesn't mean anything
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Me Being Completely Honest (confessions, fangirling, and ranting)
RandomBasically if anyone from my school sees this I'm toast cause I don't like to share too, too much about myself........
