It Just Happened

I Did.

I walked into his office with only the shirt and leggings I had on I pulled my hair back so it didn't show the grease, I also covered up my dark circles under my eyes with the concealer I found in my coat pocket. When I walked in his back was faced to me he was wearing a long black suit which was odd since he usually never where's anything other than his shield uniform, he also had a stack of papers in his hands. I decide to let him know I was there.

"Since when did you start wearing suits?" I quested him. He turned around and had a small frown on his face. "What's wrong?" I asked concerned. He looked at me and then looked at my stomach and instead of looking sad his faced changed to complete anger.

"Are you fucking kidding me? I called you done here because I needed my god damn best agent for a god damn important mission and now you're fucking... pregnant."

Shit, I knew he was going to find out but I had slimmer of hope that he was going to tell me before looking straight to my stomach. Now I was doubting ever coming down here I was doubting about telling everyone else. Shit.

"Listen I didn't want this either, I never intended for any of this to happen, but I can't take it back, and I won't, maybe I thought I did but now when I think about it I want this child I want to rise this child. I understand if you don't want me or let me to go on this mission then fine I'm okay with that it will force me to tell the rest. But I know you and I know that whatever thing you have up your sleeve must be important, important enough that you've only called me for this so let me just give you thing. I can do this I'm capable to do this. I know I'm pregnant and I know I probably can't do everything that I used to but like you said I'm your best agent"

He looked at me then back at his papers and said "I probably shouldn't allow you to do this especially in your state, I mean how far you are? But I don't really have a choice considering the problem." He looked once more at his papers then said "fine."

"oh." Was all I could get out "I mean thanks I won't let you down." I finished.

I went to grab the files out of his hands when he said "I wasn't done." I let them go and allowed him to finish. "I'll let you go but on one condition... you and that baby make it out alive if anything seems off or if anything goes wrong you contact us and you get somewhere safe, you understand"

All I did was nod my head, and smiled and walked out the door. As soon as I walked out I bumped into something, more like someone, while dropping all my stuff I saw feet then a white lab coat then his brown bunchy hair, then his eyes which was not looking at me but my stomach, "Nice to see you too" I say while grabbing my stuff. I looked down with him when he didn't say anything "I was going to tell you, I was going to tell everyone."

"When?"

I looked down at my stomach with him then back up following his eyes. "Soon, really..." I was trying to convince him but he still looked angry. "How long?" he said with no emotion. "What do you mean?" I asked lightly

"How long?" he said again but with more anger. He knew I knew there was no way of hiding it anymore. "About 5 and a half months..." I said sadly. He looked me straight in the eye and said with sad eyes. "Why didn't you come to me?"

I looked down at my feet I couldn't bare to look at him "I could've helped you I could've made sure that baby was okay, for all you could know that baby could be dead."

"It's not dead." I said coldly but loud enough for him to understand.

"how do you know that, how the hell do you know that, you've been locked in you room for over 5 months, jeez Nat we all thought you were dead if it wasn't for Maria coming to us every few weeks saying that you were okay, we might off all gone crazy I know Clint would of. He was broken he thought you hated him cause you never said anything to him you two were like siblings you told each other everything you trusted each other do you not even trust us anymore."

"You done" I said quite annoyed he didn't think I knew this of course I did.

"NO!" he screamed "I'm not what about Steve" and as soon as he said Steve my heart dropped. "He blamed himself he blamed himself for everything, he thought you hated him, for what? Huh, for sleeping together"

"How did you know that" my heart skipped two beats when he said that.

"You're pregnant Natasha you've been hiding for 5 months, last time we saw you was 5 months ago when you got home from that mission with Steve it all makes sense now, and I think it always made sense but I just didn't want to believe it."

"You don't think I feel terrible of course I felt bad, of course I feel I let people down I didn't want to hurt anyone god, it hurt me so much to keep this a secret I just couldn't tell anyone specially Steve, I couldn't let him think I was weak that I was pregnant..." this time I got tears in my eyes "I wasn't allowed to do that I wasn't allowed to love him and I sure as hell wasn't allowed to get pregnant,"

"You love him" he said with question.

I shook my head and said quietly "I don't know." I turned away so he would see me cry. "Maybe I did, I don't know but I do have to go" I said. He didn't follow me he just stood there.

As soon as I got back to room, Maria stood up from my bed looking nervous. "What" I said confused

"You can't go on this mission?"

I sat my stuff down and took my jacket off and took a deep breath. "I'm guessing he called you" she looked at me like I was crazy. "Well yeah I'm leaving tonight" I said bored

"No" she said angrily

"Excuse me" I said confused

"Nick, told me about the mission I thought at first you can handle this but now I know you can't, you can't... you can't risk it I can't allow you to do this. It's too dangerous not just for you but that baby inside."

"Thanks for your concern, really but, Nick already told me I can handle this and I believe him, I'm sorry Maria but I'm doing this." I said while packing my bag. I looked back at her face. "I understand your worried I do, it's just, I want to make everything up to everyone, I let them down in the past few months, and I just feel like I have to do this for them."

"I can't stop you can, I?" she asked sadly

"What do you think?" I said smiling