Gotta Get Out

$11,00 - Pills n' Potions

~ Pills n' Potions
We're overdosin'
Can't stand it but I still love you ~

I highly recomend for you to listen the song before/while/after reading this chapter.

Claire's POV

Today is saturday. It means that I lost my whole first week of school.

Great.

Luke told me that if I have problems with math (wich I hate) he can help me out.

Michael have been avoiding me ever since I started hanging out with Luke, and, honestly, it hurts.

You know, the way I feel about him, it's terrible. Because I like it. But it only makes me feel worse. It's difficult to explain.

It's like a drug.

And, right now, I'm overdosing.

He makes me feel so confused.

And I'm so angry about it.

It seems like I'll never figure him out.

He's so... Ugh!

I'm so mad.

Everytime I look at him, It's like a near death experience.

I even see the light.

I'm overdosing.

And I can't stand the tought of being just friends.

Some people say that it means I'm in love, but I take that as an insult.

I can't stand it.

And I know why.

Maybe it's because I'm hurt.

I still like him too much to forget.

But I can't admit it out loud.

Because I'd rather hurt someone than be hurt.

But I still like him to much.

And I want to give him up.

I want to give this feeling up. I want to give the butterflies up.

But I still like him too much to give it all up.

Right now, I'm home alone.

It seems like he's with Crystal, or whatever her name is.

But I still like him too much to don't care.

You know what?

He might like her.

But I still like him too much to face up reality.

I don't like him.

I like him.

I like him too much.

I'm slowly falling for him.

Because he's so funny.

He used to be so perfect.

But I guess nothing's perfect.

I guess part of me knew that this would happen.

But every time I look at him, I can still see a halo.

But he's still the reason why I feel so empty.

I'm worrying so much.

He probably doesn't even care.

I'm so ashamed of me for caring so. much.