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Fear

"What are you scared of?" He said it with a mischievous grin, with dark eyes twinkling in the dim light, with a playful shove against her shoulder. She twisted out of his grip. Didn't he know that the five words sent her heart flying, her pulse skittering, her hands shaking? "Of letting you get too close" she wanted to say, "of you seeing the parts of me I desperately want to hide", "of you finally realising I'm not what you wanted", "of getting attached and losing everything."

Her mouth clamped shut and she forced the words down, nearly choking on them, splitting her skin open on their sharp edges.

"Of being forgotten," she finally whispered and his face darkened, "I don't want to be one of the girls you kiss and forget about."

She watched him struggle for excuses, desperately trying to reach for something that would soothe her churning thoughts, the storm of doubts she was caught up in.

"You're not like the others." Only a snort made it past her lips at his answer. She knew she wasn't like the others, there was no need for him to tell her. She was scared, positively terrified, and now that he knew how much of a mess she was, it was so easy to see him looking for a way out.

"You want to know if I'm scared," she said, not bothering to wait for a reply this time, "and I am. Yes, I am. So scared of being used and hurt only to be left behind. So scared of getting my hopes up only to have them crushed. But most of all I'm scared of being forgotten." He opened his mouth, closed it, opened it again. Closed it. When it became clear that he was frantically searching for something, anything, to say, she spoke again, quieter, calmer.

"But I wanted to give it a shot this time. I wanted to prove that even a person like you could love me. But now I know you'll run as soon as you see me break. And yes, I'm scared. Of never finding someone who can show me that I don't have to be."

— write about "fear" // Fear of being forgotten, ignored, or replaced

n.j. (via ninasdrafts) (found on tumblr)