Da Ding (Ben Bruce)

I never told you. That I can't take another disappointment.

Ben’s POV

Oh god I was gonna cry, I kept blinking it wasn’t helping though and the next thing I knew I had threw her off me onto the floor and was running down the apartment stairs out onto the street. I could hear Valentino calling my name ‘BEN! BEN! WHAT HAPPENED MATE?? TALK TO ME’ I stopped and landed on the concrete floor outside it was raining; Valentino kneeled down in front of me ‘Ben mate what happened?’ he said,

‘She knows I’m disappointed, I couldn’t let her see my cry Val’ I said sobbing,

‘I’ve never seen you like this, what is going on?’

‘My mum died Val, and I nearly lost Beth the other night some whore was throwing herself over me at my party and she saw and ran in front of a bike, and I’m not disappointed in her I’m disappointed in myself I let that girl throw herself over me and I came over here beating Louis up before I let her explain’ oh god I had just realised what I had done she probably thought I was disappointed in her, before I knew it I was on my feet shouting up at Louis’ window,

‘BETH! BETH! COME TO THE WINDOW! I’M NOT DISAPPOINTED IN YOU I’M DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF’ I shouted as loud as I cold so she could hear me,

‘MATE YOU BETTER GET UP HERE SHE’S LOCKED HERSELF IN THE BATHROOM LOUIS SAID SHE USED TO DO THIS A LOT AND WHILST SHE WAS IN THERE SHE CUT HERSELF WE CANT KICK THE DOOR DOWN ITS A FIRE DOOR’ Danny shouted back down out the window, I was running up the stairs as fast as I could I couldn’t let her do this to herself because of me.

‘GET OUT THE WAY!’ I shouted as I ran into the fire door knocking it down, I landed on the floor

‘HOLY FUCK BALLOCKS WANKER CUNT THAT HURT’ I shouted in pain all the boys laughed I sat up quickly to find Beth in the bath blood dripping from her legs arms stomach by the looks of it any where she could get to without taking her clothes off her eyes were dropping, I couldn’t lose her not now not ever I loved her I know I had only knew her a few days, but whenever I used to ask my mum what love felt like she always used to say ‘I can’t tell you son but you’ll know’ and I knew, I knew I loved her I could feel it in me every time I touched her, looked at her, thought about her.

‘CALL AN AMBULANCE!!’ I shouted at the guys,

‘Beth talk to me please please talk to me I love you’ I said sobbing uncontrollably,

‘I love you too Ben, I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you, I’m sorry I disappointed you, you’re better off without me and my baggage’ she closed her eyes I picked her up out the bath and cradled her in my arms crying, crying so hard my head hurt my heart hurt,

‘I love you Beth! You are good enough for you! You didn’t disappoint me! I’m disappointed in myself! I’m not better off without you! I need you!’ I said crying hardly getting any words out, the paramedics came running in and took her away from me,

‘NO NO! YOU CAN’T TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME! I LOVE HER!’ I shouted at the paramedics, a women paramedic came over to me trying to attend to my arm ‘We’re just trying to help you and her Mr...’

‘Bruce my name’s Ben but I’d prefer to have a male paramedic it’s nothing personal towards you I just can’t lose her again’ I said sobbing, she looked at me all sympathetic,

‘There is no one else Ben I’m sorry I’m sure she’ll understand why don’t you explain your situation while I tend to your arm’ I told her what had happened she looked at me, and said,

‘I’m sure she will understand what happened the other night with that girl is a lot different to what is happening now’ I shut my eyes and cried, ‘she’s going to be ok we have very good doctors here, why don’t we take you to her now’