Hello. My name is Emma and I want to tell you a little bit about my whole life. ***WARNING WHOLE BOOK IS TRUE, NO LIES*** Right now I'm 12 years old, but next Saturday (December 14th) I will turn 13. I have been through so much in my life! And it's been really hard I cry myself to sleep almost every night. At age 5 or 6 I found out I was adopted and I was born two weeks early, and one day I went to the mall and I saw a little boy- and looked at me like I was a freak! I'm not a freak, I'm just me.
And I've always been so freaking happy until 7th grade...
I'm in special ED, because I have trouble with my math. In my last class of the day we were working in groups and they where all off task. I was just sitting there and listening to them. And they were talking about really creepy stuff like- "Which type of girls had curves."
And one guy pointed to me and I looked up at him and looked at him in his eyes and he said "Oh hell no she's a "stick," she can't have curves!!" And my whole world just stopped there...
I didn't care about the curves thing, just what he called me and said to my face! It hurt so bad. Sure I have a small body, yet I was born in a big world. I told my friends about what he had said and once they read this book they will remember. I cried so hard, and I can't handle pressure like that, because once it happens it's stuck in my head and once it's stuck in my head...I want to cut.
And I have already cut just once, my "sister" told my mom. And I saw terror in my mothers eyes, and I haven't cut ever since that day.
Thank you Brooklyn. I love you! She is so funny, sweet, silly, and she makes me smile.
Okay yesterday (December 5th) I was called "ugly".
In 6th period I was sitting by a different guy, and they were talking about....gross stuff. So I looked at them with a creeped out face, and muttered under my breath saying " Y'all are strange" because it really really was. And he randomly started singing " Who said, who said your not perfect?!" By Selena Gomez for some unknown reason. And I looked at him and he said " Who said your not beautiful!?", and I said
"That's not very nice.". One word....ouch! I don't know what made him say that, but it hurt. I know what your thinking...that's not to bad to get you depressed so fast. But I'm very sensitive, I told my mom and she doesn't even care! So I told my brother in the Army and his guns were loaded! I miss him so much! And then I texted my boyfriend, and he's not happy about it either, he's such a sweet guy.
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DEDICATED TO MY BEST FRIEND THAT I WON'T EVER GET BACK-
I always had this one best friend (Britney) that I would always get in trouble with, always hung out with, picked fights with, always played together with, and so on. I loved 5th grade more then anything and I would literally give up anything to go back to all of that! And to be honest I'm even crying while typing this. Because she replaced me in 6th grade with this other named Emily and she played Britney! Emily's other friend Madison was texting Emily in class and Madison showed me what the text had said- "I hate Brit brat! I was never friends with her, she's such a b****!" And I wasn't happy! So I told Britney and she didn't believe me...WHAT!!
She thought I was jealous, but once they were "BFFL's" I gave up on everything to get my only other friend back. Then I only had Katie. (REMEMBER THIS IS GOING BACK TO MY 6TH GRADE AND NOW IM IN 7TH GRADE NOW.) It was so painful, but when she didn't believe me I didn't know what to do next. And to this day I still try to get her back. But all she dose is ignore me. And she makes really stupid choices in life that I have to do for her like help her understand, know what it means to me and her life! But for some reason I know she knows I'm right, she's just afraid to say it at the right time or something. And just typing all of this it's self makes me want to just simply....cut.
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DEDICATED TO MY SISTER, KATIE- luv u!!
Recently, me and my best friend had our first fight. Yes our FIRST fight ever, and it was hard,painful,crappy....
And I not being selfish, but I'm a lot more "mature" (most girls know what I mean.) then Katie- no offense!!! Friday, after lunch she said "I feels good to cuss!!" And I was at my locker I turned around look her straight in the eye and put my hand on to her shoulder. And said "Yes, I does, but it's not a good thing to be saying!" And she just backed off and pushed my hand off her shoulder quickly and she walked away. But then I wondered if Katie had even understood me and why? But like I said I am a lot more mature.... *.*
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My life is so hard sometimes! <|3
De TodoThis is about a girl with a hard life, pain, depression. She has gone through so much pain...and one day it's gonna end...because, she can't handle it anymore.
