first kiss

the day

Crush:bob
Me: cil

So today is 9/30/16 and ive known my crush since 8/24/15 and we are both in the 8th grade now... and ive liked him since last year. His name is bob (im not using our real names).

Past:
We had history class last year and apperently we would always flirt with eachother and i guess our teacher thought he was a bad ass teacher so he would always try to act all cool and he would yell bob and cil stop flirting back there and i would always just start blushing so much more than i probably already would and at that first time inwas told that i acutally thought about it and i started to like him.
Durring this class everyday i would talk to him and than i somehow got his number and i started texting him and sometimes we would talk in that freaky way 😉 and.....

Present:
So today is the day.... ok so for about a week now we have been talking freaky a lot and when we have been we have discussed like we sould acutally do it and like skip all of first period to do it in the morning.... so today we met up in the mornkng about 8:03 and the school bell rings at 8:10 so we met up and than walked arround slowly for a couple minutes and than we were alone and it was 8:06 so he was like ok where your locker and i said up stairs and so he was like ok lets go over there to spare time and i was like alright. So than we walked to the building and up stairs by my locker and when we got to my locker it was like 8:09 and the assistant principal was like come on let me walk yal to class and there was a teacher im really close with and i mouthed "please help" and she called over the ap and he stopped following us... than the bell rang and we just stopped in the hall and did the pleges and than walked arround for a bit and we were not talking like it was really awkward. Than he asked "where you wanna go" and i said "how about the old building area" i said that because nobody would go over there anymore and there were no classes by the old buildings and than we walked over there and when we got to the spot it was like a box like shape with one side missing so you could go in (thats the best i can explain) and than i put my stuff on one side and he put his stuff on the other side, than i walked up to him and was like ok. Than he was really close the the corner and i walked over to him and he said ok so how we going to do this and i was like i dont know and bob grabbed me at the waist and i like grabbed him like i was about to hug him and he leaned in for a kiss and i was kinda scared because i havent had a first kiss before and i didnt know what to expect and i was nurvous so i just hugged him, and when i was hugging him he grabbed my ass 🍑 and than i like lifted my head from his shoulder and we looked at eachother and he leaned in and i just went for the kiss and when i kissed him it was amazing and than i stopped it after like a couplle seconds and than hugged him and i was really close to him and he pulled me even closer to him. I could feel his dick 🍆 on my v spot, and I moved my leg so that my legs were more open and i started i guess you could say grinding on him but we were standing up and fully clothed. Than we kissed even more... like a lot more 💞😊 and than we stopped and took a breath and than kissed again and we used our tongues when we kissed and he pulled back his hands from grabbing my ass and he grabbed my hips than he moved his hands to my back and pulled up my shirt up a little bit and tried to lut his hands in. My pants where my ass is and i let him go in just a little because i was enjoying the kiss than i moved back so that he would stop trying to put his hands down my pants and he said "aww come on" and i said nah and than i mkved him and hugged him again than he started grabbing my ass 🍑😏 and i kissed him again. Than durring that kiss he moved his hands arround to the front. When he moved his hands tried to put them in my pants but vargiana area way and i let him get his fingers in and than i was like nope and i just stopped kissing him and mkved away from him and said nope.... he said "please" than i said no. And i moved in closer again and we started kissing again and than he put one hand on my hip and started touching on my vargina (on the outside of my pants) and i moved my leg up a little arround him and i got so close to him and he moved his hand off my vargiana and i stared trying to do stuff with his dick 🍆 👅 but he wasnt really like into it , like anything we were doing it didnt feel like he was into it after i didnt let him put his hands down my pants. So he just like stopped what he were doing and said ok we should go to class now, and i said ugh ok, and he oicked up his stuff and i got mine and we walked to class 😩

When we were walking he said "dont tell anybody what we did" and i said "ok"

After i got to my class i realized that he had a girlfriend and that shes coming back to our school this next week and i was just so disappointed in myself and i felt so much guilt for a while than by the time it was 3rd period i was like why should i even feel bad hes the one who should feel bad i was just getting what i want from my crush and ive liked him for alomg time and than i was telling my friend about it.... cuz our teacher let us on our phones and i started texting my friend who is home schooled and telling her about it and i just thought he didnt seem so pleased with what we did and i now wanna do it again

Than later on in the night afterschool he texted me and was like hey and we had a normal conversation than he said that mrs.a saw us doing our stuff and she asked him "wow that took long with your girlfriend, how was it" and he told me he just told her "shes not my girlfriend i was just getting something ".... when he told me he said that i was sad because we just like made out and stuff and he was like thats not my girlfriend... but i know he has an acutall girl friend so it shouldnt really bother me that much but it did just because hes mt biggest crush ever.

Later on we were talking about it and j said we should do it again and he said we should acutally fuck 👉👌 and i  was like nah because #1 my bestfriend would beat my ass if i lost my virginity and #2 he HAS A STUPID MOTHER FUCKING GIRLFRIEND like wtf 😭. It really bothers me that he basically just cheeted on her and was like dont tell anybody 😭.... but he said that we should go to the mkvies or something and do it and i was like i cant because last year my mom read our messages and she didnt want me talking to bob anymore. And aso i have been in a lot of trouble lately. 😩😩