"Always..&Forever.."

You made life worth living..

He made life finally worth living. He made everything i hated turn into everything I loved. Before him i hated mornings, the rain, having people wake me up and love. Theres so much more but i figured id keep it short. Every since him I started to love morning, love him waking me up because i napped for a whole hour and he missed me too much. There were some days he'd let me sleep those were usually the days he was with my best friend Tom, although he was with him  and well i was sleeping he didn't stop making me feel loved even though i was asleep he'd blow up my phone with cute messages like "Hey princess i love you so much I'm sure you look so beautiful as your fast asleep, baby wake up soon i miss you i love you" and on top of that id wake up to about 20 messages just saying "BABY" "BABE" "WAKE UP PLEASE" "PRINCESS I WANT TO SEE YOU". He made me feel like i was finally worthy and good enough with or without makeup he'd love me either way. I hated the thought of people loving one another you can say i was more then bitter about love since i was cheated on by an ex who clearly didn't appreciate me. But him oh him made me think of love like a little kid in a candy store. Constant butterflies with him. 

For a girl who was depressed,cutting and suicidal and the girl who the night i met you planned on dying, for someone to save me who i didnt even know says a lot. He touched my life in ways i don't think i will ever fully understand. He made everything better with just being him. He was amazing. He made those constantly dark thoughts in my head go away. He made his arms my home. I didnt think i could ever find a home besides the one i live in but he made me realize you can have more then one home. His arms were the safest place for me it was where no one no matter what could ever hurt me. No matter how bad of a day i had being in his arms made everything better. His kisses made the bad day slip so far away i forgot i even had one. I found a home in his arms, a home i never want to give back. He is the reason I'm here today. I owe him everything. My best friend couldn't save me and i knew him for a long time so it says something. 

I didnt know a stranger who quickly became my friend would save my life, give me a new home and for once make me genuinely happy for the first time. Not only did he teach me how to be happy and mean it. He loved the sad girl with a million cuts on her arms. When i thought id never be loved because of that.

He made me love again.