BENEATH A PRETTY GIRL SMILE

Weekends

So it's here weekends.  I neatly put my backpack on the stand and drop in my bed with a thud. The Boredom silently creeps in. It's just Friday evening and am bored already.  Neither mom nor dad is home so that's kind of a good sign for peace and quiet right??  Right!!.
I lay there just staring at the pictures on the dresser then it happen

**Flash back**
"C come on you can't just stay here in your room lets go to the party, it's Friday night for crying out loud" my annoying twin plead to me.

"Chin come on you know mom won't allow it plus we went out last week and the week before give it a rest now" besides you one can go Damien will be there. "
"So what she won't know unless Kevin talk and I know he won't, sis pretty please I really want to see Damien but am not going without you please just this once please???

She pout at me with that cute face how can I ever say no.  I mumbled and then finally give in.

"Fine just this once.

"Yeah you’re the best sister ever love you" she said in awe as she exit to the bathroom.

Shaking my head I slowly pick out my outfit.

It was about ten when we leave the house...

*PRESENT*
I was  drown out of the trance when a drop of water bolted down my cheeks.
The memory was too much to recall.
I slowly drag myself to the bathroom and freshen up.

After much satisfaction I get dress and decide to take a walk, to get my mind off  my guilt. I was looking for Jay's jacket but I remember that I gave it back- reason it's more comfy than mine.  A little disappointed I pick mine up and head down stairs with my sandals in my hand.
The house was quite except Kevin music playing softly. I stood there at his door wondering if I should tell him am going out or just leave a note.  I stayed their pacing back on forth then finally I developed the courage to knock.
Two minutes pass I was about to walk away but then I heard footsteps, then I saw him.
"Hey C" he said dryly.
"Hey I was just telling you that am going out for a bit so if mom or dad ask you can tell them" I said dryly too.
"oh Cool “and with that he went back to his home. Kevin and I used to be so closed but after Chin died we drifted apart.
I then make my way to the kitchen and grab an apple and my cross bag with my necessities. On the way out I grab my baby keys.
I got in and drive out of the garage.  I had no idea where am gonna go but am going where ever my mind takes me.  Times like this back in Chicago I would just go to the bike track and ease my mind winning races and earn some good adrenaline and cash of course no one knows about it except Chin.

Remembering about the beach I slowly turned and headed that way.
Seeing its a Friday evening I think it would be much crowded but to my surprise not much people was there.
I pick a parking spot for my baby and get out.  I didn't really bring any swim suite so I just grab my towel, my phone, water and head phone. Leaving my bag in the car.

Taking off my sandals and resting them in the car until am ready. After I got everything I need I unplug the key from the ignition and lock the car and put the key chain around my neck and take off to the beach while digging my feet in the sand like a little girl smiling.
With less bother I quickly found a cool spot and spread out my towel and plug in my head phone blasting the best Playlist ever and relax. I was humming now and then.
Music is my getaway as usual.
I slid on my shades and lay there in my little world blocking out everything wishing I could just get over this guilt and be my normal self again but that's easier said than done.

So wrapped in my little world that I didn't even see that someone was standing in front of me, until my babies were ripped out of my ears ( yeah you got that right my earphone is one a ma babies too, if u haven't realized it by now am a weird crazy chick.

Curious to know who is messing with me I bolted up only to see a shirt less Killian smiling at me too distracted by the sight I totally forgot to scold him.
Silently smiling to myself I stared at him.

"Hey you cute face, what's up" he said while making his self comfortable.  While I on the other hand is too wrapped up on his chest and how I would just cuddle in those arms.

Your staring my mind alerted me.
"Aumm Aumm hey nothing really just here, "I said quickly trying to cover up my weird act while scooping over to make room for him.

"Oh I just came here for a swim and I saw you and here I am" he replied with a genuine smile.

"Oh am just here enjoying the weather” I forced out with a half genuine smile knowing that's not the truth.
"Oh come on live a little let's go for a swim" he pull me off the towel and drag me along the beach side. Totally avoiding my winding and grumbling.
"Killian come on I just want to relax"

"then this will" and before I could relax I was scooped up against his chest.... Squash that amazing hard chest and was dumped into the water.
"Awww what the hell am so gonna get you" I scream but before I could compose myself he started splashing water all over my face, with a giant grin on his face if I may add.
In no time we were playing water war and running around the beach like kindergartens.
I was laughing so hard while running from a water bag that I wasn't looking where I was going and I collide with some chick.
"Am.... so....so...sorry "I said out of breath.  Too tired to look up.
"You dumb Ass why don't u look where you’re going, you totally did that on purpose” a squeaky familiar voice echoed through my ears.
Totally recognize the voice I look up to see a furious Jessica totally soaked and look like a mad dog and me being me I started laughing instead of answering her, a mean you can imagine having on tons of makeup and your face accidentally got wet.... That's what I saw. 
I laugh so hard that she left with her mouth wide open and confuse.

It took me about ten minutes to get back to myself. Killian was also grinning in amusement  as we left the scene and were now walking back to my towel.
"OMG Chinnaz her face was priceless, this is the best Friday ever trust me" Killian said for about the third time due to how excited he was.
"Oh come on it was an accident but trust me I had to laugh... It was hilarious" I said in between laughs.

We were so caught up that we almost pass my towel. As soon as I reach there I drop myself down on the sand under the tree, instantly a cool breeze pass by.
Killian on the other hand was drinking my water with no conscience at all.
"Hey there hold up a girl is thirsty too you know" i said while stretching for my water bottle.
"Oh sorry" he said with a shy but cute innocent smile.
I had my water and we just sat there.

Killian is fun. He really knows how to get a girl mind occupied, but somehow I wish it was Jay.  Weird huh?