More Than Paralyzed { Ricky "Horror" Olson }

Voices in My Head Again, Beating Me in a War I Can't Win

By the time the food hits the grill everyone has moved outside where it's getting close to sunset Lucian, Balz and the Ryan's have been inseparable for the last hour now, I think Ryan-Ashley wants kids now with the way she's acting around Lucian. Ricky's followed me around like a lost puppy, but that's not much different from how we usually are. It's pretty great honestly being around everyone, I don't have many friends due to the fact that once you get pregnant  many people no longer want to associate with you until the baby is born then they act like they've been there the whole time and expect your child to call them aunt or uncle whatever.
Ricky wraps an arm around my waist pulling me into his side and away from Vinny, smiling at me before kissing my temple.
"Is it too early to say I've fallen for you?" Ricky whispers.
I shake my head,"no, of course not,"
"Then I've fallen for you my love," he whispers in my ear," I'd shout it to the world but I feel like I just did."
I blush uncontrollably turning to bury my face in his chest. What has this man done to me?

After the barbecue Ricky comes home with me, also not anything unusual. He carries Lucian inside and puts him down in his bed. I watch the way the two of them interact and I wonder where this man had been all my life. His shaggy black hair and stunning blue eyes; he's the piece I've been missing. Things are going great and we haven't even been dating for that long, six hours but we've been friends for longer. I never thought we'd actually end up like this I mean I had hoped but things like this usually never work out in my favor. I'm the girl people forget about. I had gotten so comfortable with it being just me and Lucian, that anything else would be weird.
"You okay Chick?" Ricky asks pulling me from my thoughts I smile at him and nod,"okay so you go change into your batman pj's, I'll start you a cup of tea, and start a movie, still feeling No Strings Attached?"
I smile,"Yeah, you're so good to me" I kiss his cheek and he kisses my lips pulling me into his arms, this is perfect. Ricky kisses my forehead before pushing me towards my room.
"I'll see you downstairs." He says before walking down to the living room.
I change and walk downstairs and I'm suddenly full of doubts, though they vanish when I see Ricky.

Present day •Ricky•

After all these years I still catch myself thinking about Salem and Lucian. I wonder how they are, well where they are. I haven't seen or heard from them in two years it's kind of to the point that I'm starting to wonder if they're even still alive. Salem has gone ghost on all social media for two years. In case you're lost and wondering what happened, Salem and I broke up, obviously, but it was a mutual agreement, for a while I was still around Lucian, I'm not going to lie it was kind of nice to play dad for a while, I think of him as if he my own, we celebrate birthdays, holidays everything together or we did. My current girlfriend is okay with it, believe it or not, even more so now that I haven't heard from them in a while.
"Hey Rick, you ready?" Chris asks I nod.
"Have you heard from them yet?" Ryan asks.
"Heard from who?" I ask and he just gives me a look. It's Lucian's birthday, he's four today,"oh no I haven't like last year."
"She'll call, Ricky," Ghost says.
"She didn't call last year either though," I sigh.
"She can't call," Vinny chimes in rolling his eyes.
"And why is that?" I ask.
"Her phone has been off for two years now," he says,"have you not been paying attention to the news from Scranton?"
"What do you mean?" I can feel the pit of anxiety just growing in my stomach, did I do something? What does the news back home have to do with her?
"Her and Lucian have been missing, for two years," he says," her family stopping looking for them."
I almost instantly feel nauseous at the thought of that precious boy gone missing.
"Yo, Rick you okay?" Ryan asks I just shake my head and pass my guitar to a tech before vomiting in the nearest trash can. I don't think you realize how much Lucian truly means to me. I feel like a part of me just died.