Have you ever just sat in class when it was quiet and thought "oh well shit, it's so awkwardly quiet. HAHA I do that daily, because all my classes get awkwardly quiet and I hate it. But that's when I think best. So today. In Geometry (my first mod, with a really cute boy), I was like thinking "haha maybe I should fake sneeze just to get rid of the silence." But then the silver was broken by someone else coughing. Me thinking about sneezing said "bless you" like a awkward fuck, and the kid that I like said was cute, laughed at me and I was like (under my breath) "fuck me.." and then omg. The person looked at me and smiled. And WHATTTTTTT.
Another awkward time,
Every day. My second mod gets quiet waiting for instructions from our teacher because she's really strict about listening (other then that totally chill ) well she always says something about how it Always gets awkward and silent even before the bell right? Well. I sit next to this kid. And I won't give names but I'll give like code? Ok so I'll call him (Special) so, special. He like. Omg. He's not always the smartest. He does stupid things that like make him look really dumb. But we all love him because he's great. Anyways. He was saying shit. I don't even know like but I was just in deep thought of what to say. So I just blurted out song lyrics. And everyone. And I mean. Every. Damn. One. Of them in the room including special and my teacher STARTED SINGING. I WAS LIKE WHAT HAPPENED. WHAT HAVE I CREATED. IS THIS WHAT LIFE IS LIKE. CAN I JUST NOT DIE. CAN I STAY IN THIS MOMENT. I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF. AND THEN THEY STOPPED AND I WANTED TO CRY.
No other awkward times have come to mind for right now so I'm like making side bars. And I'm sure there will be side bars within the side bars because that's just how I think. And apparently it's cute to this college guy so I'm like oh ahah my awkward is cute to you?? And he just laughed I'm like. OH OKAY HI. but no. So like. I love all of my friends. Especially the ones who are as awkward as me. Like I mean this person isn't as awkward as I am. But like. I don't think this person is my friend? But like. She's hella similar to me. (And dating my exes brother. And my exes brother doesn't even like me ((hhhmmmmm interesting))) but like she and I could communicate through awkward noises. Like literally sit in a room and like *squak* back and forth it's great. Like I am finally embracing how weird I am. I am loving it too. Like I could walk down the hall like a freak. No worries fam it's just who I am. But to all those who are weird like me? Maybe you'll like this book? Maybe you won't. I don't know what you're into man. Whatever floats that goat of yours. So yeah. But like love me. Sorry (I'm awkward)
