last goodbye

#2; unlucky tho haha

Well, today is my birthday after all. Yay? My parents weren't around like usual, I know. It fine by me. They were too busy, it can’t helped. They were so busy that I couldn't handle it anymore. I should be strong and independent from now on.

This is my life. It just me, myself and I.

It had been a long day without them and I wanted to tell them about how I felt when I met them again. I had to say what was in my heart. I had to be honest to what I felt.

Be comfort by lie is more painful than be attack by truth.

​In the afternoon, I was going out as I needed to relax my mind from negative thoughts about myself. People kept waving at me, so did I.

“Rinn, have your parents home yet?” Asked Aunt Mimie.

“Not yet,” I smiled.

“I’m here for you. Anytime. You know about that right? So if you need me, just knock the door and I’ll be there for you.”

Aunt Mimie pats my head. She was cared a lot about me. She cared about us. Since we moved here, she’s the only one that always keep in touch with us. I love her, just like a mother of mine.

She walked by.

How I wished they knew about me, my real life. I said.

​"Hey Rinn! You're alone, again? Where's Emma?" asked Nathan as he walked in front of me.

​"She's too busy to be disturb. How can you not know how your girlfriend is doing? How poor," I laughed.

​Nathan poked me.

​Nathan. He was also my bestfriend since middle high school as we were in the same class. He also Emma's boyfriend, actually. He was a kind boy that used to care a lot about me. He was a pleasant and nice friend for me, listen to me whenever I need someone to talk. Lend a shoulder when I want to cry. He's a big brother to me, not more than that. I love him like a brother.

Lately, he always came to see me and I kept wondering why. I was astonished.

He said, "I was worried about you,"

Sometimes, I felt uncomfortable with his presence. It wasn't I dislike him, i just don't want any complications in my life.

“Do you have time?” He asked.

I nodded.

“I want to invite you to my house. My parents having a small party for my sister that will returned from Japan tonight. Will you be there?” He looked into my eyes deeply.

“I’m sorry, Nate. I just can’t,”

“Why? You didn’t have anything to do right? All you do is stay home alone. Doing nothing. Come on, Rinn.” He begged on my knees.

I pulled his hands, helped he to stand up.

“I just can’t. I’m sorry,”

When I walked away, Nathan shouted out loud.

​"Well, happy birthday girl! Have a blast and be wiser, okay?" said Nathan, smiled.