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Chapter 6

I was really disappointed by myself. I thought that the whole thing with Mrs Murphy was unrealistic that I like boys that I am straight... But after that kiss, I knew I am not attracted to boys. It was indescribable. I felt anxious, frustrated, sad, but also kinda happy since I finally found out my sexuality. Actually, I am lucky that I know it.

Unfortunately, my feelings have to be hidden. She is beautiful, nice, funny, always well-dressed and... Stop it! She is MARRIED with two children. She could be my mom! This is so stupid.

I cried again. After all my attempts to learn Math for tomorrow's test I decided to let it be and just go to bed because I wasn't able to concentrate.

When I woke up and went to school. On my way there I was trying to get Murphy out of my head although I knew it won't be possible. She had the first lesson with us which wasn't really good for me because I am not a morning person so I like to have a nap during the lesson and she hates it so much.

I was patiently sitting on the chair and waiting  for the door to open and see what she today looks like. Her outfits are gorgeous, always.

The door opened and my heart started to pound quickly. However, there wasn't Mrs Murpy. It was our principal.

"Good morning class. I have some bad news for you." he said calmly.

What? Bad news? What is happening, oh Gosh....

"Your English teacher Mrs Murphy was in a car accident an hour ago. She had to go to the hospital. We don't know when she will come back or what exactly happened. You have a free lesson now. Goodbye."

Oh no, I am really worried. What if she will have to stay in hospital for the whole week?

Nobody was talking about her for the rest of the day. I wanted to see her so bad, just to make sure she's OK. But... I can't.

On my way home I went to the supermarket and bought some food that I can eat for dinner since my parents have a meeting today.

I was thinking about Mrs Murphy and I decided to visit her, it's polite and kind.

When I arrived to the hospital I wasn't really sure what to say or how long should I stay there so I just stopped worrying about it because I don't even know if the nurses will allow me to go to her room.

I told the doctor I want to visit my teacher and he said he would ask Mrs Murphy. I was so nervous. She might not want to see a student she barely knows. Those 5 minutes of waiting for the doctor felt like 5 ages.

"Miss, follow me." he said, so I knew that she allowed me to come.

He showed me the door to her room. I stopped for a minute and tried to calm down. It's just an innocent visit. Breath in, and out. Ok. I'm ready.

I opened the door and saw Mrs Murphy sitting on a white chair watching people outside and eating an apple.

"Hello." I said with shaking voice.

She turned and smiled at me.

"You can sit here." she took the chair, put it next to the hospital bed where she sat down.

"Thanks." I looked at her confused. She is so different. Bloody eyes, it looks like she was crying, wounded hand and her face expression... She must be really frustrated and miserable.

I realized that I forgot to give her my gift. I opened my backpack and gave her a bag full of fruit.

"Oh, that's so kind! I really love grapes and oranges. Thank you so much."

"You are welcome. You will need lots of vitamins to heal."

"I really appreciate it and also I am very happy that you came to visit me." She said excitedly.

She was silently smiling for a couple of seconds, which made me a bit nervous.