Captain Swan One Shots

Home to Me

Summary: Killian tells Emma about what happened with Belle, which leads to her confessing her secret and taking their relationship to the next level. (Missing scene from 6x02 and speculation for 6x03)

Rating: G

Note: So after 6x02, I really wanted Killian to share with Emma what he shared with Belle. And then when I read the 6x03 synopsis about Emma considering taking her relationship with Killian to the next level, this popped into my head. Hope you enjoy it! ~Steph

...Home to Me: Part 1/1...

Following dinner at Granny's, Killian and Emma walked hand-in-hand down the sidewalk.

"How did it go with Belle?" Emma asked.

"Fine. She and her unborn child are safely stowed away on my ship."

"You do know that if Gold wants to find her, then nothing will stop him, right?"

"I am well aware."

"And you also realize that he will not take too kindly to the fact that you kept his wife away from him...again."

"That I do," he replied.

Emma stopped and turned to him. "Then why do it?" she asked.

Killian dropped his gaze to the ground. "I owe Belle a great deal more than shelter, love. I regret the terrible things I did to her in the past. Things I can never make up for."

Emma squeezed his hand. "Belle knows you're not that man anymore, Killian. I am sure she forgives you."

"Aye, that she does," he replied softly.

Emma's eyes scanned his face. "But you still can't forgive yourself, can you?" she asked.

Killian lifted his eyes to hers, a small smile curling his lips. "You know me far too well, Swan."

"I know the man you are now, Killian. I know that you regret your past. You've taken responsibility for your actions. You've never made excuses. And I also know you have worked hard to change for the better. To do the right thing, to help others. That's what matters now. That's the man I fell in love with."

His tongue lashed at his lips. "I'm not sure I deserve such faith in me, Emma. As I told Belle, I have a long way to go before I can be a man I am proud of."

Emma smiled sweetly, as she lifted her hand and caressed his cheek. "Well, then I can be proud of you for the both of us. It takes a lot of courage and character to take responsibility for your actions, Killian, and to try to better yourself. I am proud of how hard you have worked. I am proud of the man you are today."

Killian swallowed roughly. "Sometimes, I still don't feel worthy of your love, Emma."

"That's ridiculous," she said, her thumb stroking his scruff.

"Is it?" he asked softly. "There are times I wonder if you put your walls back up every so often because you wonder the same thing about me."

Emma's eyes widened and she shook her head. "That couldn't be further from the truth, Killian."

"I wouldn't fault you, love. Not after everything you've been through. I know you expect the worst in people, you expect them to let you down. I know you have difficulty trusting."

"You know I trust you," she said.

His eyes met hers and held. "Then why haven't you told me what's troubling you? I know you're still keeping something from me."

Emma lowered her eyes to the ground. "Killian, please."

Killian lifted his hand and touched her chin, so that she raised her head and met his gaze. "This is precisely what I mean, Emma. When you shut me out, it makes me feel as if I'm not worthy of you. It make me feel as if you believe that deep down inside, whether or not you even realize it."