Scribblings Of Love

Dance With My Father

( Dedicated to all those LGBTQ brothers and sisters who didn't get support from their own family)

I was sleepy
As a two months baby
Inside I was happy

My eye shades fading
My smooth skin sliding
Against rough skin of my daddy

I used to dance
My parents being my fans
With one of my eyes at a glance

Towards my Father........

Just to make sure
That I was happy
He will dance with me
His love will endure

But now I wanna.....

Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again

As I was ten year old
He taught me swimming
As a miner seeks gold
He caught me drowning

As  fear of death washed me
Overtaking wetness of water
I felt powerful hands around me
None other than my Father

I was adamant to learn
Letting aside my dad's groan
I finished a loop around the pool
But I don't wanna make my dad fool

Just to celebrate the moment
I had my HERO gripping my hands
He danced with me
Leaving aside all his errands

But I wanna

Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again 
Dance with my Father again

As I entered thirteen
Though lately but not set back
As there's a garden inside been Butterflies churned my stomach

They are the signs of love I know
But it's weird to say though
Still caring 'bout the laws that imply
I fell in love with a Boy

He is my second HERO
Without him I am zero
Just at sun rise dew will flee
He was there to love me

As I needed a support 
He was there to hold me
Whenever I was wrong 
He was there to correct me
As he know everything about me
He is here to dance with me

But I wanna

Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again

When I turned Eighteen
My Lover is there been
As I decided for one best day
I told my Father I was gay

Whatever mistakes I do
He wasn't the one to hit me
Though helping a paper was torn by glue
HE slapped right on my face

And within few moments 
My First HERO acted like a villain Though with astonishing pain and dripping eyes
I couldn't help but admire my dad

I knew his affection was hiding the gaze
But I can seek only his foot against my gut
I knew his love for me was steady
But I could only find my bones breaking

He was the one who threw me
At the pool for swimming
Now the same hands threw me at the backyard
Blood from my wounds still dripping

I never get annoyed but liked his saliva
Whenever he used to kiss ME, His lovely son
Now he spit me with the same for a "MISTAKE"according to him
How can I get annoyed with that lovely juice now

That " mistake" was never mine
But he said I should pay the fine
As I pleaded with my dad
He said I would be punished by God

The eyes that are used to
Stare me with love and care
Cursed me with disgust
As he closed the door

I, My Dad's lovely son made a 'mistake' now
He never wanted me to cry
But I couldn't help making my cheeks wet
Though he wasn't there to wipe them

Luckily I had one unbroken hand  Two other belong to my beloved one He was there to comfort me
And he is here to show his love with me

I am turning twenty five
Feeling like a Queen of a Bee hive
I am taken care of by my love
Along with some silly fights we show

Though we are not official 
We adopt two little ones
I just want to be a good Dad
As Like my Father was before my 'mistake'

I just dance with my kids when I am happy
I just dance with my better half when I am needy
His cute eyes are arrows to stab my heart
I am just naive to make him a dart

I am having happy times
With my unofficial husband
But when every time he shows his love to me
I find a empty space for my daddy

Cause anyhow I wanna

Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again
Dance with my Father again