You're All I Have

Chapter 2

 I ran to the woods outside of town to our secret hide out we used to play in when we were kids. I opened the door and went in and all the memories flooded me. I had to sit down on the floor to stop myself from falling. I had tears running down my face. I looked around to see what I could find. I got up and out of instinct cleaned up the place. Then I realized I could pick up things and stuff like that. I looked at my hands thinking how can I do that. I instantly grabbed a chair and threw it across the room. I thought maybe I'm not dead, that it was somebody else who just looked like me. So I walked to a wall and took a couple of steps back. I ran as fast as I could at the wall and to my surprise I went straight threw it. I hit the ground because I wasn't expecting that. I turned around and I was outside. I had actually gone through the wall. God I was dead, this is going to be bad, and I have to tell somebody I am here.

I ran back to town to Jacobs's house. I ran as fast as I could. I opened the door and went straight to his room. I had been there so many times as a kid. I opened the door slowly and he was wide eyed staring at the door. I walked in slowly and said," Can you see me and can you hear me?" He slowly nodded and then I couldn't handle it anymore. I ran to him and rapped my arms around him. He wouldn't touch me for a minute but he slowly hugged me back.

"How can I hear you, you're supposed to be dead." he asked.

I was sitting in his bed when I said, "I'm a ghost. I came back to life and I have to help you live again or at least that's what I was told." He looked at me, then nodded. We talked all night about when we were children and what we had planned for the future. After a while, I went back to the hide out until morning.

The next day I went straight to Jacob's house to see how he was doing. I walked in and the sight I saw was terrible. He was in bed, not even sleeping just staring up at the ceiling with tears in his eyes. He was supposed to be at school. I am getting really worried. I couldn't do anything it, so I left before I would throw a chair with anger. I wanted to see how Jamie and Alex were I hoped they were doing better than Bryan was.

I was heading down the street to Jamie's house because she was always there. If she was anything like Bryan I am going to be upset as well. When I got to her house nobody was there, so I headed to the school. I knew which class she was in by heart. I could go there in my sleep, but when I walked in, I have never been heartbroken that bad before.

They were laughing Jamie, Alex, and everybody else. They were talking about me. How can they do this? I was dead and they were my friends. They were saying such horrible things about me. Then I got real angry. I went to the chalk board grabbed a ruler and slid it down the chalk board. Everybody screamed and looked at me, but couldn't see me. I grabbed the chalk and everybody gasped. I wrote 2 sentences and then signed my name. It read, "I'm still here. You should feel a bad for talking about a dead person, you better pray for forgiveness or I will visit you later tonight. Katie" I laughed and everybody screamed again. I ran to the door and slammed it shut and everybody screamed again. It was so much fun teasing them.

I went back to Jacobs's house and I told him everything that happened. He laughed when I told him what I wrote and he asked if I was serious and told him no. I was just trying to scare them and it worked. We talked for a while before I went back to the shed and laid there wanting to listen to music. I grabbed my old iPod and turned it up all the way.

The next day I put in my school uniform and went to school. It felt good not having to work all day, so I walked around to see what everybody did while we were working in class. I heard teachers talking about students and making fun of them. I kick one in the shin, for talking about a girl who had speech problems. He screamed and I laughed all the way back down the hall way. I then went to Jacobs's class room.

I walked through the door and Jacob saw me and smiled. I waved at him. He was taking a test and I said," Hey, you know I could go up there and give you the tests answers." He looked at me for a minute then smiled again and nodded. I told him all the answers. By the end of the day I was just trying to make him laugh and it worked well. I drew on a guy's face, flung a book across the room and slammed a door open and shut. I loved it.

After school, we went to the hide out and talked, by like nine o'clock at night he finally went home. I said bye to him at his car. He looked like he was worried about me but he let it go. When I got back to the shed, I had too much fun tonight. I stopped suddenly and looked around and started to cry. I can't be this happy, I'm dead. I will never grow up and get married and have children. I will never have grandchildren. Everything was taken away from me. I dropped to the floor holding myself. I couldn't stop crying. I have never felt so alone.

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 I spent a couple of days by myself. I went swinging a lot. I didn't know what to do anymore. What can a dead girl do other than be dead? I was useless, not important, why was I even here? Why couldn't I just die like a normal person? My friends seem fine, I am the one who needs help, I don't want to be dead. I want to go back to the same way I was. Alive and happy. Why did this have to happen? I just want my life back. I don't care if I'm not the same way I was before. I just want to live again.This is like some bad dream. I'm lost and I can't find my way back home. Someone help me. I'm tired of being a ghost, please just stop this horror film.

 I was at the park all day just swinging back and forth. Looking up at the sky and around me, watching the world go by, while I just sit and Watch. I won't move with it ever again. Just sat on pause forever. It's the worst way to live.

It was getting late but I didn't have the courage to go home to my shed. Why should I pretend that I'm living a normal life? What do I have to live for or just undead for? "I finally found you. I have been looking for you all day. I was getting worried." Jacob ran up to me panting. I looked at him for a long time.

 "Shut up. Shut up! Shut up! You don't understand anything. How can you be worried about me when I'm already dead? I won't grow up like you and have a family. How can I ever be happy when I don't even have to breathe to live? You are the only one who can see me. You don't know what you're talking about. So shut up! Shut up! Shut up. Go live your life and be happy because I won't ever feel like that again. I don't know if I have any feelings now at all. So don't act like you're worried about me because I'm nothing but a ghost, who can't communicate with anyone but you. So leave me to the peace and quiet because that's all what left of me."

By then he was standing in front of me, looking at me with such sad eyes. Out of nowhere he slaps my face and says, "Don't you ever say anything like that to me again. You are just as important to me as you were alive and someday you will live again and we need to do all in our power to make that happen. So don't ever feel alone because you have me." I stared at him with wide eyes. I couldn't believe he slapped me and said that thing to me.

We stared at each other for another minute. "I'm important to you?" He looked surprised at first but then nodded. I thought to myself I wish I could kiss you right now. Then he suddenly bent his faced down to kiss me but I moved away before he could. He took a couple of steps back and said, "Sorry, I shouldn't have done that."

 I stood and went to him and said," No, it's okay. I wanted you to do that but I'm not ready yet." He nodded and looked away. I sat back down on the swings and he got into the one next to mine.

We swung in silence for five minutes before I heard a voice and it was the same voice I had heard before. "Katie, I will give you one last chance for a life. I will give you the gift of life but it comes with a price. Do you want to hear that price?" I nodded. "Okay, you will have to become the monsters that only live in the night. You can go out to in the day, but at night can you do as you wish. The only food you will consume is blood from a person. Don't abuse this gift. You will only marry one guy and he will become your mate. You could change him by killing with your blood in his mouth. Be wise and if you fail this you will die and never return. Enjoy eternity." The voice was gone and all I could hear was Jacob screaming my name.