Colours speak

05

I wake up
I open my eyes and scowl at the world
Decide that I cant be bothered
And I go back to sleep

The above process happens approximately infinite amount of times before I actually wake up.

It's like a freaking programming loop going haywire and repeating like crazy when you desperately want it to stop.

And even when I do wake up I look like something that a cat would have vomited.
My point is I'm extremely intolerable. So much so that I can't even tolerate myself. Yeah things get pretty entertaining when my mind tries to kill itself.

To day was one of those days.
Apart from having to suffer from another day of class I even have to take Aaron to pax. How I manage to make life so annoying for myself, I really don't know.

Ian on the other hand seems to get more and more pumped up as the day goes, cause he's evil and he's delightfully anticipating me taking Aaron to pax. The little asshole.

When the last minutes of art history fades away in to dust I sigh in happiness and then immediately groan in annoyance as I see Aaron outside class waiting for me. Urgh Enthusiastic much.

I just nod at him. ' come on'
And I quickly put on my earphones and blast out 'youth' by Troye Sivan.
The deal was that I would take him to pax. Not socialise with him.

He falls into step with me as he walks beside me. He gives me a scrutinised look.
" what" I huff in annoyance.
" what are you listening to"
" none of your bees wax"
"Bees wax?" He laughs " iconic"

Coal used to always laugh at that too.

I stuff my hands into my hoodie pockets

We were nearing pax. Just a few more turns to go. I let the last chorus of youth serenade me as we walk.

My youth, my youth is yours
Tripping on skies sipping waterfalls
My youth my youth is yours
Run away now and forever more
My youth my youth is yours
A truth so loud you can't ignore

Fuck
I don't realise that I'm singing along softly until Aaron looks at me, eyes wide and smiling,clearly recognising Troye Sivan.
Dammit Troye , why you give me so much feels

I hastily pull out my earphones as pax comes into view. I can't help but notice that his smile is still etched onto his face.

" here we are"I say not making eye contact.
" thanks, give me a minute and I'll be back okay?"
" okay whatever"
Oh wait.. I actually had the option to leave him there... I mean he can surely find his own way back...
Dammit
Now I'm gonna have to wait for him.
I follow him inside into pax. might as well see some of the paints and go all nostalgic.

If you want to feel like you've been wrapped around in a rainbow pax is the place to go. It has a ridiculous amount of colours to choose from.
" woah there's so much" Aaron gasps
" I know"
I try not to smile as he slowly walks around the infinite amounts of shelves as if he in a trance, an awed expression drawn into his eyes.

After five minutes of staring at him like a creep;
Okay Ian's right dammit. He is good looking. I've never seen a beanie sit so perfectly on someone's head. Oh wait actually I think the beanies good looking. I mean he looks fine, actually he looks better than fine, I mean he looks better than pretty much 99% of males ... Okay what am I saying
I'm going to shut up.