What am I?

Me

I'm 5'5" and more of a tomboy rather okay girly girl. I hate wearing pink and tank tops and flats and the whole mess. 

I've tried everything to get use to what I'm expected to be. I've tried writing fanfic and nail polish, I've tried to wear different clothing but the only things I like is sweatpants, gym shorts, t-shirts, jeans, and hoodies.

 I hate the fact I'm the best singer in our singing group in school and always getting complements from all these girls who want to sing like me but I hate their compliments. 

When I hang out with guys, which is rare, I feel....normal. I hate being asked out by guys because it makes me feel gay. I don't know what to do. I like looking at girls but they don't look at me like I'd like them to. 

I look in the mirror and look at my breast and pray they'd be a dream. I hate how they jiggle every time I'd run and do sports. I bind my breast to my chest and put a t-shirt on and feel like how anyone is suppose to feel. 

I want to accept myself but the question is how?