The Day My Mother Died, Changed My Life -(BoyxBoy)

The Day My Mother Died, Changed My Life - Chapter Four

Chapter Four – Yay emotion. Sense the sarcasm?

I lay on my bed, thinking of what the hell I did with Corey. I knew it was wrong but in all ways possible it felt so right. So many questions left unanswered and I really don’t know who could answer them. I want to get to know Corey, for all he was the first guy I had any sexual experience with. He’s special; I can’t help but get a butterfly feeling in my stomach whenever I think of him. His chestnut brown hair, his sparking eyes that i could stare into for years, his all so perfect body. Woops, I dribbled a little.  I sound like a loved up teenage girl, the joys of being gay I guess. I haven’t had to help Katie plan my mother’s funeral, she said that she wanted to do this one last thing as mom’s oldest daughter. Kimberly is taking it in her stride course she’s sad, but as she says. Under my smile there are a hundred tears, she Lola and Teresa have always been the 3 musketeers. Even when they started high school they were always so close, they are all identical which they play to their advantage. On the last day of school, all 3 of them switched classes with each other and made their teachers make a fool out of themselves. I warn you, don’t get on the wrong side of one of them because you’ll have 3 bitches after you.

There was a knock at my bedroom door, “Josh breakfast. Get up” Lola shouted from the other side of the door. “Just getting up” I shouted back, I stood up shaking all thoughts of Corey out of my mind and concentrated on getting ready for school. I looked at myself in the mirror and gosh, I looked horrible so I decided to take a shower. I put my IPod on shuffle and jumped in, turned the heat up, and that ladies and gentlemen is all you need for a perfect shower. I spent at least 10 minutes in the shower and then decided to straighten my hair. I picked up my bag, phone and books and walked downstairs. I placed my stuff on the sofa and walked into the kitchen, “You have 2 minutes to eat this, sign this, and find where your car keys are” Teresa handed me a piece of toast, a letter to sign for her to go on a school trip. I bit a bite of toast and grabbed a pen of the side. “Where am I signing Tess?” I asked with a mouth full of toast. She pointed to a blue box, and mouthed “1 minute!” I quickly signed the letter and ran to find my keys; I checked the sofa, key rack, dirty clothes pockets.

I was running around like a mad man until I ran into something hard, and fell on my ass. “Looking for theses were you Josh?” there was Corey holding my keys swinging them around his finger, I immediately blushed when I looked him in the eyes. He extended his other hand to help me up, I took his offer. He pulled me close to him “What have I told you, SMILE” he shouted the last bit. I smiled, why did Corey have to be so irresistible. “Corey, why do you have my keys?” I said stand up and brushing myself down. “Because you’re driving me to school? Dweeb” Corey said picking up my bad and pushing me out the door. “Why am I driving you to school? What about Katie or your own car?” I said in a petty harsh tone, but I was kind of angry he has no right to tell me I’m driving him to school. I stomped of to my car in the garage, Corey go into the other side chucking our bags in the back. It was pretty awkward so i started the car and sped out of there. Corey started singing Paradise by Coldplay, I just gave him the most evilest look ever, and he soon shut up and just hummed it. “Shut up!” I shouted at him, he just looked at me with an innocent Corey look. “What curled up your ass and died- Crap Josh I didn’t think, I’m sorry really I am” he shut up and looked ahead, he pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them still looking ahead. He seriously looked like he was about to cry and that made me feel bad. “Corey its okay, I know you didn’t mean anything by it. No hard feelings okay?” He just nodded a little, either he had sudden depression or i really made him feel bad. I pulled over in the middle of know where in a lay-by, “See you at 4” Corey said pulling out his bag and stepped out of my car and slammed the door. I quietly counted in my head 1, 2, 3. “What the fuck, Josh where are we?” Corey said jumping back into the car.

“I’m not driving until you tell me what is bugging you” I said crossing my arms over my chest. Keep your ground, that’s what my granddad used to say, body posture is everything when you’re being intimidated by a sex god. “Well we still gave 23 minutes to get to school” Corey said with a chuckle. “WHAT?” I so checked the time at home at it really did say I was going to be late. “Did you set me up Corey? COREY, you did, WHY?”

“Because I wanted to get to know you, help you with your mom’s death. Just be a friend, a shoulder to cry on, Josh I can see your hurting deep down, and I want to help” He looked me in the eyes and I instantly knew that he wasn’t lying, you can always tell when a person is telling a lie their eyes will twinkle. Okay maybe Corey’s eyes twinkle all the time but I man a special twinkle. “Thanks, but I’m okay. I don’t do emotion, I smile and everyone thinks I’m a happy teenage boy. Truthfully I’m having a war inside, a war of hate for my father and confusion why I’m not secretly hurting because of my mother. This war is triggering a grenade whenever I see you. I get butterflies when I’m around you. If you weren’t around I would be in so much pain right now, and you’re masking my pain Corey. Course I miss her, more than anyone can understand, but your my cure and my curse at the same time” I ranted, yes all of that was how I was feeling but he didn’t really need to know that. “I think you just emptied your heart out Josh. You should let your feelings out, and you’re so wonderful with words, you didn’t even recite that and it as so well put. Nothing in the world can change the way you feel and if that is really how you feel go with your heart. What does your heart tell you to do Josh?” I sat there what seemed for hours, I looked at Corey who was sat there looking at me waiting me to say something. Then I remembered what my mother used to say ‘Actions speak louder than words josh, remember that’ and that exactly what I did remember. I leant into Corey and genially pressed my lips to his. I pulled back before our tiny kiss became more, “My mother always told me to remember that actions speak louder than words, so here Corey. I just said about a million things in one kiss” I kept eye contact with a huge smile on my face. Why didn’t I do this earlier?

“Josh, she would have been proud of you, you know that right?” I just nodded trying to hold in the tears that were about to fall.

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Author's Note: Kay, well this is really short.. but HARD to write. Personally really bad at emotions.. So this took me two days to write:') I have been staring at this blank screen since 4pm and it is now 3:36am..... Soo i know this sucks, but bare with me things are about to get weird..

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