The Day My Mother Died, Changed My Life -(BoyxBoy)

The Day My Mother Died, Changed My Life - Chapter Twelve

*Chapter Twelve*

-Josh’s point of view-

“Sky I need chocolate for Corey, he’s having a mental break down about that letter. I’m over it now, don’t quite know what to do about it so i’m going to wait a while until my brain works! But Corey is going mad!” i sighed. Looking at sky and she was pretty upset too, we are currently sat at the table in the kitchen and its 4am! Corey had just woken up from a nap and now he’s pacing out in the garden.

“Josh, you have to understand Corey may seem all tough but he doesn’t like to see people hurt. What makes this worse you ran away from him and didn’t let him help you. He didn’t know what to do Josh you hurt him, i know you were hurting too but if you really loved him why did you run?” Sky opened up to me about her brother. Why did i run?

“Sky i love him so much! I don’t know how my life would have turned out since”- a lump formed in my throat but i forced it away “My mom” i starred at sky. “What do i do Sky? I’m all alone in this” i mumbled

“That’s where you’re going wrong Josh you have everyone around you! Me Lola, Teresa and Kimberly and Katie! And last of all COREY” she shouted his name. Why was she being so harsh about this?

“Honestly Josh don’t fuck about with my brother he’s been through a lot with this whole ordeal too you know. He’s been there for all of you and now you’re not letting be there for you. That’s what’s hurting him more than any of this” she paused and sighed “Josh i’m not meant to be saying anything about this, but you need to hear it. Once you ran away, he was hurt too and he burst out crying thinking that you didn’t want him anymore than you got someone better than him. He was in doubt about your whole relationship he thought you had thrown it all away! You hurt him!” that’s when everything settled in. That’s when i realised that i hurt the guy i loved unconditionally he is my rock, my everything why didn’t i want him to be there for me?

-Corey’s point of view-

Waking up from the worst sleep ever, why do dreams come to hunt me. This is the worst dream by far, that Josh left me.

A tear rolls down my cheek and i quickly wipe it away, jumping out of bed i ran to the bathroom and turn the shower on. Once i had stripped and climbed under the water letting it flow over my body i let the tears that i had been holding back flow, my mind reminding me of my dream.

“I’m leaving you Corey, i was just using you to get over my mom. Now i don’t need you because i’m over her. I didn’t love you and you were so stupid and pathetic for believing anyone could love a heartless soul like you” is what my mind kept replaying over and over again.

I tried my hardest to not think about it, Josh loved me right?

I pushed my thought to the back of my mind and washed my hair and body. Trying to concentrate on something else for a while, once i had finished in the shower i got out and wrapped a towel around my waist and walked into my room. Slipping on a pair of boxers and walked towards the kitchen.

I got to the bottom of the stairs and heard people speaking, i looked at my watch and it said 4:05am! Who would be awake at this time? I stepped closer and heard what they were saying.

“Sky i love him so much! I don’t know how my life would have turned out since” Josh paused for a second. “My mom, What do i do Sky? I’m all alone in this” Josh mumbled.

“That’s where you’re going wrong Josh you have everyone around you! Me Lola, Teresa and Kimberly and Katie! And last of all COREY” Sky shouted my name, wow she’s pissed. “Honestly Josh don’t fuck about with my brother he’s been through a lot with this whole ordeal too you know. He’s been there for all of you and now you’re not letting be there for you. That’s what’s hurting him more than any of this” she paused and let out a long sigh “Josh i’m not meant to be saying anything about this, but you need to hear it. Once you ran away, he was hurt too and he burst out crying thinking that you didn’t want him anymore than you got someone better than him. He was in doubt about your whole relationship he thought you had thrown it all away! You hurt him!” She told him about me being a pathetic love sick puppy!

I walked into the kitchen and gave them both a smile and they both looked so shocked. Sky gave me her disproved look. What did i do?

“I’ll leave you two to it” Sky swiftly walked out of the kitchen.

And then we were alone, he knew i am weak.

“I’m sorry” Josh said with a small voice.

“You’re sorry? Do you know how helpless you made me feel?” i shouted at him, i’m angry ok? He could have come to me about the letter but he didn’t he choice to run.

Josh sighed “No i don’t and please don’t shout at me” He looked down at this twiddling thumbs.

“Fine, don’t speak to me then” i walked toward the door of the kitchen and he grabbed my arm and pulled me to him. Embracing me into a hug, with reflex i wrapped my arms around him and pulled him even closer.

Then the tears started flowing again, what was up with me?

“Corey don’t cry! I’m so sorry i ran. I’m not used to this whole thing about going to your loved ones. I didn’t think all i knew is i had to blow off whatever i was feeling” he sighed.

“What were you feeling” i wanted to know.

“Corey do we really have to go through that?” He sighed again, what is he hinding?

“Yeah, i want to know what you were feeling! What was so bad that i couldn’t conceal you!” i looked up at him and looked him in the eyes.

“Fine” He paused and kissed my cheek. “i read that letter and i guess that everything just set that my mom was really gone in stone. She wrote me a letter for me to read once she was dead! I wanted to know why she didn’t tell me about the farther thing before she died, before that man punished her for me being who i am” a tear ran down Josh’s face but he ignored it and carried on “I want to know who my dad is Corey, why didn’t she tell me that i have a different dad! i didn’t want to be told that everything is going to be okay because i know if i had gone to you, you would have told me that. Now i realise how i made you feel and i would have never wished that on you! I love you so damn much, i don’t know how my life would have been if it wasn’t for you. Honestly, never ever do i want to make you feel helpless and that i don’t want you anymore. You are my life Corey” He then smashed his lips to mine.

-3 hours later-

Josh’s Point of view-

The most amazing thoughts were going through my head, we did the deed. Me and Corey did the dirty, a giggle slipped through my mouth.

“What you giggling about Josh?” Corey smiled into my neck pulling me into him, skin on skin.

“Just you’re amazing skills” I found myself smiling too.

“You don’t regret it?” his voice wavered.

“Corey, honestly no i don’t. You’re the person who i love, and will forever.” I said with a massive grin on my face.

“Good, it was pretty amazing i must say”

Silence fell between the both of us, not an awkward silence. The ones that make you happy in the other persons presence.

I don’t know how long we were silent for, we just held each other.

He broke the silence but speaking, “Josh, do you think we will ever get married?” he said with a smile on his face.

“Well i surely hope so” i mumbled back

THE END.

-Authors note-

So i have decided to leave it there but don’t worry there will be a sequel to this story, there is so much i still have to write i just think it would be better to separate it into two maybe three books. Who knows?!

Can’t believe this is over!

Anyway, look out for the next book! Should have the first chapter up in the next few days! Not sure what to call it yet but still!

BYEEE:D

p.s. FIRST BOOK I HAVE EVER FINISHED IN MY LIFE!